Originally, I was supposed to be relaxing, and meditating, trying to not think of this situation that was killing my mind, but as the situation will get worse by the day, I need people’s advice about what I should do, or tips or something.
Well little background, I have these entities on my ass that are just destroying my mind. They punch me, drain me etc. Not sure what they really are. I first I thought succubus, or nymph or Fae I’m not sure. But in the morning, I made the worst mistake ever that made this situation even worse.
Since some forum members said that I should try to befriend them, and win them over, I did that. I kinda started being nice to her, and she grew affectionate of me, or so I thought. Looking back at this moment I’m pretty sure she did something to me that strengthened our bond. Because of this, she said that I’m going to become her fucking slave. She was just faking it like the many times she did this to me. I’m also sure that my soul is practically glued on to hers, I’m guessing that’s what she did.
Now, one would say that this situation is fairly easy to fix right? You just have to do a banishing ritual, or invoke a spirit to get rid of them. Those were the options I had in mind, but later on, those options were out of the question.
The physical pains were back, and more painful than last time. My lungs felt like it was tearing apart, and my heart felt like it was being stabbed. The pain took a brief pause, and I randomly thought of this dude in a black leather jacket smoking a cigarette looking at me with his red eyes. When I thought of that I smelled his burning cigarette. And that’s the guy who punches me. The pain immediately resumed after that. I definitely felt that guys fist punching and ripping my lungs. After that, I noticed that I started coughing up white transparent mucus which was my phlegm. That guy actually damaged by lungs which was horrible, he only punched me for 15 seconds. This means that he could actually kill me.
This is extremely bad news meaning that if I do banishing rituals or any ritual, If that ritual is starting to work, that guy would start trying to kill me. Trying to make me stop doing that. Of course this would lose my focus unable to focus on the ritual I’m doing.
I’m also certain he going to kill me soon anyway. My soul practically belongs to the lady that caused it all because of my mistake. So when I die, I’m going to either be her slave like she said, or be the guys punching bag forever. Even death isn’t worth it anymore.
Additionally I’m sure that the lady who caused it all is extremely experienced to this stuff. She knows what she’s doing. She’s highly deceptive, and manipulative. When she knows that when something won’t work. She’ll encourage the person into thinking their “higher self” is on their side. I’ll take my situation for example. I want to get rid of her so I do the LBRP. The lady that caused it all will know that the LBRP won’t work. So she deceives me into making believe that it’ll work. I remember one time when I was doing the LBRP, she whispers to my ear “please don’t do this.” Another time I’m pretty sure she made me think of a flaming blue pentagram hinting at the LBRP, making me think that my higher self should keep doing this. But in reality, it’s just her fucking around.
The lady who caused it all has all these puppets working for her I’m sure of it furthermore proving that she’s very experienced. All those puppets are unwillingly forced to do her biding. In my case, she force these puppets to harm me by draining my energy or punching me etc. I feel sick knowing that all her puppets were probably humans once living their lives without influence. And I’m next.
Basically what’s going to happen to me is that she’s going to make the guy with the cigar (probably one of her most obedient puppets) to destroy my human body slowly. Next she’ll probably make her other puppets to drain my energies, and giving my energy to her resulting in her gaining strength. Eventually I die, and become another one of her puppets.
So what do I even do? I can’t do rituals, that would just speed up my death, and most rituals don’t work in one go, they take time. I can’t do rituals to banish them, but I really can’t just do nothing, and embrace it right? Also doesn’t help that the lady is experienced, and most likely knows how to counter some banishing rituals somehow because all her slaves.
Another thing is that isn’t helping is me. I’m inexperienced with this stuff which doesn’t help at all, and the fact that I’m also under 18. Have no access to materials or even a house. Hell, the only reason I’m here in the BALG forum is because I want this issue I have resolved. I started this mess, and I guess deal with the consequences of my actions.
What do I even do?
