I thought I should write about my self progress and experience in general. Some stuff has been changing in me since i started evoking/invoking, I hope to a better end. One thing for sure! I am not that terrified as I used to be before starting this. I seem to be outgoing sometimes and selfish in a good way! I am the super introvert type and will always put everyone first. I mean I used to be the one to apologise in a super polite way when it’s not even my fault! but now I wouldn’t mind lashing out and being rude when am attacked or threatened. I have to find a balance.
Also I am working on my senses and asked Lucifer and King paimon for help. Since I have done this I seem to feel drilling in different points on my head and my back. My ear dumps feel sore and pops from time to time. The back of my eyes too and it feels like something pulling my eyeballs out when I close them and meditate. I have been having pretty weird dreams of being experimented on. I can’t recall details but I wake up sore and feverish. Something is at work or am a nutcase both works for me lol!
On the other drawing journal I finished drawings for Lucifer and Lilith. Now I am working on one for King Paimon but I seem to lose my focus. I am not sure if I saw him in a dream because I just can’t recall. The fun fact is I had a dream while I was working on Lilith. I had a visit from Asmoday and I still remember it. He was floating in space teaching me how the earth works! When I asked “is it god” he said “its a god” and pointed to read a word and I read it asmodeus! He was wearing a blue tux! Yes I took notes lol! I will be drawing this later! Must love unexpected guests !
I am trying to meditate alot lately either in bed or hearing theta music’s all day. What I have noticed is that each time I reach a TGS state my cats snapping me out of it… just as soon as I hear a word or see the rain, one of them jumps to me and snaps me out… I feel like I am being pulled in two different directions and it’s giving me headaches… each time I try evoking even without meditation I have a cat on my lap… when I lock my self in the toilet they freak out trying to get in… I wish I could understand what they are telling me…
Well that’s what going on with me for now! I’ll be updating as I progress.