Running Around in the Darkness

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Alright, I’m going to be honest. I’m feeling just a teeny bit nervous about tonight with Bune, but also super hyped. For whatever reason, since deciding earlier I’d call Belial again, I’d say my heart is more excited about that. I’ve always had a fascination for him. I blame Lady Eva’s wonderful threads. Plus, I crave chaos.

I don’t know if I’ve shared my first try with evocation here. But maybe you guys would like to hear about it.

The first time I tried to evoke a demon, I tried with Clauneck. And boy, was I in over my head. At this point, i hadn’t really messed with powerful entities. I had jacked around with spirits and whatnot. Just common ones that hung out in the area. Nothing fancy. I was pretty good with astral travel and whatnot. And i was extremely sensitive to all types of energy.

So be me, desperate to get a job, to have an income, i was in a bad situation - Chilling in a foreign country with a job that kicked the bucket. I’d read on hear about Clauneck being ideal and I had a basic ideal of how to call him.

So i sit down, and I’m like “This can’t be that intense? I’ve dealt with spirits, I know what they’re about.”

Twas, not the case, ladies and gentlemen.

I sit down with his sigil, I call him, I think I used his enn, and I meditate. And just when I think that it didn’t work the energy in the room totally changes, and the room seemed like it darkened. At this point, I’m like, “oh god what have I just gotten myself into.”

I hear footsteps walk behind me. and it was like he just stood there, waiting for me to do something. I did not look behind me. But I’m totally spooked, and I thank him for joining, vaguely state I’m struggling with work. I don’t really formally request anything because all I can think about is the fact that I’ve called a legitimate entity that can totally fuck me up. I thanked him for his time again and said goodbye.

He leaves and I decided not to jack with something if i can’t handle its energy.

Anyways, this was 5 or so years ago. And there ya go, the story of how i first tried (and successfully) to call a demon.

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So last night was pretty uneventful. Well, more or less. Before I got started, while I was setting up my area, something was watching me. I was in one room and it was in the hallway. This is the second time I’ve noticed this in the house around this time - 2am.

Anyways, I got myself all set up and began the evocation. I thought I heard footsteps outside the door to the room I was in. Then the energy in the room totally changed. It was like warm and fuzzy. My face got so warm. I talked to Bune and told her my request, along with that I’d like this to be an ongoing thing in terms of us working together. I was having all the trouble hearing or seeing anything. Though anytime I looked at her sigil and focused on it, it would change. I used my pendulum at some point and everything seemed positive. Afterwards I ended the evocation and saged the room.

Tbh, I didn’t sage the room due to Bune, but due to whatever was in the corner watching. It took off when I started calling Bune, but something felt off in that area. As soon as I saged everything the energy felt better.

I will say, that warm energy I felt in my face stayed for a good hour or so. The room is pretty cool from the A/C so that was odd for me. Lol

Otherwise, I’d say this went well. I look forward to seeing what comes of this. I asked Bune if I could reach out to her again, and my pendulum gave me a definite yes. Pretty happy with that.

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I finally made Loki a talisman. I wanted to carve the stone, but honestly, the thought of me going at it with a knife seemed like a bad idea.

I’ve been missing my favorite trickster and I knew a way to make up for being so busy lately.

I don’t know what possessed me to add the gold to it. But i think it turned out great. Loki loves it too.

I’ve left this stone in my rune bag with my other runes for the last 3 months after discovering it on the beach. About two months ago, I wanted to use it for this purpose but never got around to it. I had determined that I’d make a talisman for Loki back in October, but I couldn’t ever decide what or how I wanted to do it. But, my heart feels all warm and fuzzy over this one. Totally expecting my wallet and or vape to go missing tomorrow.

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Guess who loves his talisman? I’m really happy.

I asked him if he liked it and got a prompt no.
My heart just dropped, and so I was like, “Oh, is there something I should change??”
Again another no.
So I’m like “…okay… Do you love it?”
To which my pendulum gave me a very strong yes.

He wanted me to take a nap and put it under my pillow. In fact, any time I move somewhere and don’t take it with me, he has a lil moment. But I slept with it under my pillows and I had the most vivid dreams I’ve had in years. He popped up nearly immediately, but not without scaring me first. Per the usual. Then he had me lay down and he pulled me out of my dream body? hard to describe. There were different moments where I’d start to wake up and he’d pull me right back in.

I’m glad he loves his talisman. I’m currently burning a black candle for him and I’ve devoted the whole day to him. He chose rose quartz to sit with his talisman and the candle. That was new.

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The great Duchess is already coming through for me, so I’ll be picking up her offering tomorrow. And I’ll do another evocation session to thank her later this weekend.

Since I did her ritual, I’ve had so many new clients rolling in. Literally, out of nowhere, contacting me for work. I am booked solid for articles. I don’t know where I’ll find the time. This is wonderful.

THANK YOU, BUNE!!!

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So I did participate in the group ritual from the other day. And I’m so happy I did. I have had a lot easier time connecting with Loki since then. The link takes you to my comment on my experience during the ritual. I’m super hyped for when the video will be uploaded. I’d love to watch how everything went.

Now, I think I need to do a chakra cleansing. Something’s blocked somewhere. I’m not going to diagnose which one. I think an overall cleansing would only be beneficial. I’ve found a three hour meditation that goes through each one. I’ll give it a shot and then try something else if it doesn’t work.

On another note, I love (sarcasm) Loki’s need to give me the wrong answer sometimes. I swear, he just loves to jack with me. I need to find another wonky candle to leave for him to make up for his jokes.

Edit: I just wanted to braaaag, I got my regular badge on here finally. Only took three years

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Hey guys, it’s been a little bit since I updated this. Everythings fine. I’ve gone back to the US for now. I managed to avoid some issues I thought would cause problems at the border ~ Thanks, Loki.

Now I’m thinking of contacting Bune again about making more money with work this month.

Hope everyone is doing well!

[AOA]

Cool, do You have Your senses Open, can You comunicate directly to them (specially Bune)?

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So I am not amazing at communicating directly. It’s so sad, in my teens, I could hear them without an issue. But at this point, I heavily rely on my pendulum. With Loki, I have a much better line of communication. We are constantly making progress with my abilities. But, with entities like Bune or ones I don’t have a solid connection with, I can’t hear at all.

My last deal with Bune was one where I didn’t get a concrete yes. But she still agreed and kept up her end of the deal and then some. I did the group ritual last month, and that really helped me make a jump in progress with opening my sense.

For the next few months, I’ll focus on opening my sense rather than using tools like my pendulum or runes. It’s time I become more independent.

[AOA]

Awesome, didn’t know that Bune could help with senses

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Well I asked Bune about money-related stuff. I haven’t asked her to help with senses yet. Just Loki

[AOA]

Ok, did Bune answered in dreams, voices or how did comunicated if i can ask?

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Loki keeps jacking with me. Long story short, I won’t have my runes, pendulum, or any of my tools for a month or two. But I ordered a new tarot deck. Anyways, I found Loki’s talisman in my bag.

But he keeps popping up, trying to give me a scare, and I’ve got a mild infatuation with all things related to him.

I’ll call him tonight and see what’s up.

Somebody misses meee

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Clairaudience Speed-Run Attempt 1 07/06 - 07/13
What’s happening:

• Different exercises/rituals every day (focus on clairaudience)

• 45 minutes of meditation daily

• 45 minutes dedicated to astral travel

• 20 minutes of tarot practice daily

• An hour or two should be spent researching, learning, or reading about anything related to improving my craft.

• Loki will be included in every aspect of this

So, I’ll start this today. I’ve got an array of resources from BALG on improving clairaudience. I’m going to ask Loki to help me with this and really dedicate myself to this. I’d like to do this each month, just dedicate a whole week, to improving some aspect of my craft.

I’m not expecting anything crazy, but I hope to see some progress. Loki and I’s breakthrough was pretty motivating. But that was so long ago, and I’ve been busy. I’ll post each day a daily recap on what occurred and really anything relevant.

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Clairaudience Speed-Run - Day 1 08/06

• I was pretty positive. But Loki’s energy has been with me constantly. He was playing games this last week, but guess who didn’t fall for these? So now Loki’s flooded the area with this playful, cheeky energy But onto this speed-run: Clairaudience is actually one of my strong suits. I’m quite interested in what I can accomplish this week.

• So I started off with this post’s resources, such as this frequency audio to listen to. Now, mind you, I like to do these stoned. I’m more open during those moments. Though, I know it’s a little bit of a crutch.

• I’m knee-deep in the search function. I looove just spending countless hours reading through posts.

• I saw this link about the throat chakra being related to your clairaudience ability. I think I’ll do a guided meditation on this.

• I was reading this thread, and they mention “listening to the silence” to train your clairaudience. I do this without really putting a name to the action. It just becomes natural if I focus on my meditation and I’m deep in it. I practiced this a bit, and I thought I heard humming, but who knows? It could have been some sound from around the house.

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Lol

I’m so lazy. But, I’m still working on my senses. No one worry.

I think I’m going to call Bune about increasing my workload.

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So an update on how things are going -

Super well. I think

I meditated last night in an effort to hear anything. I called to Loki. Shortly after I asked him to show me he was here, a spider crawled on my hand. Bad deal. Lol. Anyways I was able to hear this “tapping” sound. But it wasn’t totally clear and almost echoed or trailed off. I heard it twice. Then pulled out of my meditation because I thought it was something around the house. When I resumed meditating, it happened again. Twice in total.

Later I heard what sounded kind of like a humming. Not too sure. I haven’t been focusing on tarot like I wanted to. But right now, I’m really busy with work. I still plan to contact Bune later.

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Hey guys! I can’t believe my last update was so long ago. Anyways, I’m going to make the cashbook with Nitika. I spent too much time reading about other people’s experiences with this and Nitika. My interest has been piqued, and I’d love to see how this goes. I’ll update you guys once it’s made.

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I cannot express how strongly I’ve wanted to just completely dedicate my life to this path. Over the last year I’ve continuously thought of this. Disappearing into the forest with the spirits that rule it.

Buuut, unfortunately, life doesn’t work that way. And I remain a witch captive to the modern world.

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One thing about my manifesting, it only really works when I verbally speak it into existence. I can play around with spells for partial results, but speaking my will into existence with a whole lot of intent and confidence has always yielded the strongest results.

I’m writing this to remind myself in the future, because I always seem to forget this when I’m having a little self-doubt moment