(This matter has little to do with 72 Challenge )
The name Gabriel has been appearing in my mind every day in my native language for almost two and a half months.
At first, it wasn’t very annoying, not many times, and I even thought it was my own problem to often think of her name. Later on, it was discovered that this could be an external influence. It seems that her name has become super annoying in my mind, but in the past week or two, almost all the names that can appear in my mind have been changed to Gabriel. I think it’s either a parasite or she’s asking me to work with her immediately. I’m not sure if it’s actually a parasite, because I’ve seen her name frequently in the past two months, so I think it’s more likely that she came to urge me.
Is it because the original plan to summon her on birthday was sabotaged by me, so she can’t wait now?
I haven’t figured out exactly what to do yet, but if I’m really sure if she wants to work with me, I’ll summon her for a few consecutive days. But I’m also worried that if I start calling her every day, the spirits who are also interested in me may come to me in such annoying ways.
On a night a few days before my birthday, I dreamt of the name of King Paimon. When I woke up in the morning, I didn’t remember this dream anymore, but when I saw his name, I remembered it. He was originally one of the spirits summoned for my birthday plan, but later I canceled all of them because I haven’t decided whether to study magic well. I’m not the kind of person who works hard, and I don’t think I’m ready to work with them yet. A few days after my birthday, I began to see the name ‘king paimon’ again, even in my native language. I thought he might have come to urge me to work with him.
I did tell Gabriel seriously that I didn’t like it like this, I’ve said it several times but it’s useless. About two weeks ago, I found out that my guiding spirit and Raziel always evoke a strong sense of trust when I think of them, just like I can do anything with them and ask for anything from them. Just two months ago, I summoned Raziel to help me catch bugs because of this inexplicable trust. I didn’t even know him at first, but it was because of this sense of trust that I tried to summon him, and I thought it was my own feeling.
Then two weeks ago, when I told them not to do this in the future, I didn’t have a strange sense of trust when I thought about them again.
Really, I don’t know how I can add so many troublesome things to my life just by summoning two people every day. I originally thought that since I was a beginner, nothing special should happen during the entire process. Perhaps the entire process was dull, and at most, my abilities improved.