Thank you for your reply. I can see your kindness. I had come to see these, and from the bottom of my heart, I thought it was better for me to give up, but I think what I need may be to bypass meditation. My meditation is really difficult, either it’s a never-ending thought, or it’s a quick fall asleep and start dreaming. I have had difficulty concentrating since I was young. At first, I fell asleep in meditation without knowing it. I thought I had succeeded in meditation until I stopped. I should look for any alternative or removal methods for meditation.
But for what I am currently doing, I will continue to do it. By the way, from my Tarot card email today:
I still believe that magic actually requires a very high cost. If I don’t succeed in the end, my efforts will be zero. And by looking at these cases, you can tell that you are truly a talented person who can achieve so many accomplishments in a short period of time:
Wishing you a further journey on this path.
Also, thank you for your suggestion on choosing a work partner. What I am currently considering is working with these spirits that interest me.
They seem willing to teach me something.