So it’s been 2 weeks
I guess I should start being more honest with some of the people on this forum. I am not new to magick, I am not new to any of this. I’m only new to the Goetia.
When I was around 14 or 15, I had a dream that terrified me and put me on the path of the occult head first. I saw Jesus come down from the cross and transform into a completely different figure with fiery eyes. They pushed their hand into my 3rd eye and I could feel them for months after.
This is when I began to dig into magick and the occult extremely deeply. I was pushed towards Druidry, Psionics, and Dragon Magick / Candle Magick very willingly. It was like I knew everything about it without reading it. Then I ended up here…
I could always feel myself being drawn to the void and the unknown and when I was young I would try to tap into this energy with no knowledge of what I was doing.
In my travels on the waves, I found myself in front of entities that I should have never confronted or even looked for.
One of them was Odin, and he completely destroyed my life. I went from being happy and living comfortably to homeless on a beach living in a tent for 3 years. I could feel him ripping into my chakra daily, everything I did was just destroyed. I could not find a career, I could not find happiness, I couldn’t be in a relationship, literally it was like a plague of constant depression and anxiety that would not go away.
On one of the worst days during this time I saw a cloud transform into the image of a skull with wings. It peered into me, I couldn’t move, I couldn’t think, I was terrified. It was like I knew the cloud was watching me. I dug so deep into the darker side of magick for years after this that I lost myself in anger.
Somehow again I ended up here…
The Contact / Recurring Dream
I stopped dreaming for a long time and 2 years ago the dreams started up again. I should let you know this was 10 years after I had given up magick and moved on with my life.
The dream was the same, Jesus coming down from the cross and reaching into my soul. Except this time I could feel that it was an entity I had read about known as King Paimon. I tried to dig in deeper and ask what he wanted from me but the answers never came. I couldn’t tell their motives, it was just them and their hand reaching into my soul. I could feel them crushing my solar plexus.
So, I researched again and my mind finally gave me an answer through a video posted by E A Koetting after watching several videos on the Zeta wave and Zeta personalities. It was a discussion with another occult master about Vodoun and Luciferian practices.
Some of the things they said were answers to questions I had been having for years so I click on this link and I ended up on this website.
The rituals I have provided on here are knowledge that I have from dreams, they are not written down anywhere. Some of them do have similarities to others and it amazes me how accurate I get the rituals sometimes when I write them down. It’s almost like I was tapped into a different wave of consciousness when beginning this path.
Things begun to get weird when I ended up on this forum and of course with my un-clear thoughts and ramblings from wanting to share everything, I got some things wrong.
“I decided to attempt to lucid dream again last night, and when I finally entered the dream state I was stopped by a scream. It’s hard to tell if it was a woman or child but it echoed in my head. I’ve done my research on the screaming and have found it’s a psychological issue that some people experience before entering Deep REM. The issue I have with this is I never experienced the screaming until I began energy work and astral projection willingly. It always seems to happen when I’m getting closer to a truth like I’m cursed.”
Digging deeper into the theta wave meditations that I’ve been become so interested in lately, the dreams came back to me again. I was able to walk and control the things that would happen until I tried to dig back into King Paimon. I would hear screaming, the screaming felt like someone was being tortured and almost buried alive in a sense. They started to fade away and every single time I just wake up.
I can never tap into that wave of consciousness. It just won’t let me.
Then the dream happened again but this time it was different, I saw King Paimon and Lucifer. I knew that it was them. There was literally no question in my mind who they were. I walked towards them and began my conversation with them. They taught me a lot of things about myself and the questions I had been asking myself.
After waking up, I went from not wanting to do anything with my life and cleaned my entire house. It smelled amazing like I had hired a professional maid.
I sat down and went on a music and art creation frenzy. My mind was finally so clear I could literally feel them doing their work.
I was given a copy of the Ars Goetia, Lesser Key of Solomon and Daemon Compendium a few days later. This is when I began actively posting my thoughts here, I just didn’t want to tell the truth for some reason like I wasn’t supposed to be here yet sharing the thoughts.
Beginning my research on the subject… 1 Goetia stood out to me more than any other - Lord Belial. I could feel his energy literally pop off of the page when I got to his section of the Goetia. The sigil just called out to me. I could see an eye looking back at me when I looked at it.
This is what lead me to create a protection sigil imbuing my blood into it :
After completing this, I was shown the truth. I had dreams every night, I had writings given to me everyday, I was suddenly seeing the world the way the Gods see it.
I decided to attempt to lucid dream again last night, and when I finally entered the dream state I was stopped by a scream. It’s hard to tell if it was a woman or child but it echoed in my head. I’ve done my research on the screaming and have found it’s a psychological issue that some people experience before entering Deep REM. The issue I have with this is I never experienced the screaming until I began energy work and astral projection willingly. It always seems to happen when I’m getting closer to a truth like I’m cursed.
Evocation of Lord Belial or Invocation?
I began my setup of evocation like I had with King Paimon, Lucifer, and Lucifuge however something felt different and almost off this time. I could feel a different energy than one I was used to in the room.
I let the sigil take over and fell into the theta wave trance.
I could feel his thoughts entering my mind, I was completely tapped in like downloading the Goetic internet.
To be honest, I was hoping to complete an evocation what happened completely blew my mind and I just watched as a spectator ready to see everything. It was like I wasn’t supposed to be watching what I was being shown. I could see my entire life, every mistake I had ever made, my friends, my enemies, my family, dead relatives. I could feel it all and see it all.
Since this has been completed, I am now learning at an accelerated rate. I’m able to have visions of people simply by thinking about them or seeing their face and trancing out. I think I was given a gift from Lord Belial but I am not sure what yet.
Now I’m here
I’m not sure where to go from here but I will keep updating and informing people of my journey as I agreed to with Lord Belial in my dream.