These mergings have happened at least 3 times now. Prior to Kali coming to me I was considering evoking a Hindu Goddess but wasn’t sure who. Well Kali came to me instead of me evoking her. The first 2 times she invited me into her. I’ve never had that happen before. It was a completely different experience but I felt her strength and feminine energy. I’m not going to share what happened the first 2 times because it was weird af. This last time though I actually learned a lot. I decided to contact her this time rather than her just coming to me. She doesn’t want me to share how I contacted her so I won’t share that part. After she got here she said it was time for me to take her into myself. She also warned that once this connection is made, it’s permanent. I am basically taking a piece of her to aid me. I accepted and we merged again. The other 2 times I actually went into her. This was way different. The connection was much more clear. I could hear her and see her thoughts.
Then she told me to follow her. She took me to a desert. It was night time. The sky was clear and stary. There was already a fire going. Once we got there a Native American man was already there, waiting. This person was Azrael. Now Azrael and I took a break. He stopped by to check on me from time to time but we hadn’t really spent time together, talked, astral traveled, or had any sexual occurrences. It’s been like that for about a month, give or take. Kali walked into view after a few minutes. I didn’t have a form. I was just a ball of light. They started kissing and removing each other’s clothes. Kali then told me that the woman there wasn’t actually her. It was a blank vessel for me to be in for the lesson. I obeyed her and entered it. Azrael laid on the ground and told me to get on top of him. Honestly it felt a bit strange knowing Kali was there but I obeyed.
Next Kali told me to look past the human act. She told me to look up at the stars and focus on my thoughts, not physical pleasure. I did and was suddenly transported to a library. Azrael and I were sitting across from each other and we were having a conversation. The thing is our words came out of our mouths and went into each other. The words would go wherever it pertained to the conversation. So for example if he said I love you, the words came out of his mouth and went into my heart chakra and vise versa. This was the best conversation I ever had in my life. One thing I really liked that was said was that when it comes to meditation I’m supposed to observe, not force. Which I’ve heard that before along with some of the other things he told me but it was different this time. I feel like I actually internalized the words.
When the conversation was over I was suddenly back in the desert and was at the point of orgasm. This was the most intense orgasm I ever had, more so than that sacral mess Azrael did before. All I could do was lay on top of him while he held me. I actually tried to stop it or block it because I was worried I was going to wake up but Azrael told me to just let it happen and Kali told me to quit being stubborn. It seemed to last a long time but it finally ended. When I was a bit more calm, Kali coached me through a few more conversations. From a human view it would’ve looked like a kama sutra lesson but in actuality we were having deep conversations. When it ended it seemed to have lasted hours, like maybe 3 hours. But when I woke up and looked at the clock it had only been 15 minutes. I learned so much from this experience. It was extremely intense though.