Well, I already wrote this in my introduction in more detail, but I have problems with gnosis, one of the methods that I try to practice is meditation, the problem is that trying to keep my mind quiet for a long time I feel mental fatigue, as if I had just slept for about 4-5 hours last night, is it common? or am I doing something wrong?
I would also like to tell you about a little experience of what I think was a trance:
More or less it started when I was about 13-14 years old I experienced a little insomnia that made it more difficult for me to sleep, among the things I read to solve it I said that meditation could help me and I tried that, the thing is that I did not investigate properly what meditation was .
So when I sat on my bed to try, I was between trying not to think about anything, trying to keep a specific image in my head or just letting my thoughts wander inside of me.
The thing is, I ended up helping myself and I left the meditation as soon as I could sleep without it, but since then I am able to feel my blood flow to some extent if I focus on it, something similar to feeling your ears throb when exercising, but less intense and with specific parts of my body such as hands, legs, abdomen, jaw.
A few years passed, I was at the university, in the middle of free time, I tried to fall asleep in the seat when in the middle of falling unconscious I got the idea of trying to feel my pulse throughout my body, the result was that I managed to be in a similar state to be half asleep, but all my concentration was in my heart, although I did not feel the blood once I left it, I could feel how it beat through it, I could also feel with total clarity each beat as if it were in my own hand, but within My own chest, I was not able to feel almost any stimulation of my other senses, such as hearing or touch, it was until I was awakened from that trance.
After that every time I tried to get into that state, I either ended up falling asleep anyway, or I just felt my own pulse like I always did.
Does anyone know what that was? a trance? a simple dream? any ideas?
And also would someone give me some idea of how to improve in meditation?