IMO it’s the worry/stress part you need to fix and not the externals.
If every circumstance of your life was utterly perfect, no change could be desired (so you could potentially actually stress about the loss of that perfection!) or, worse yet, you’d become stagnant - a creature so devoid of dynamism and growth that you simply exist in stasis.
Unless you’re actually being physically tormented by something to the exntent it jams your cognitive abilities, or are in the first acute stages of some strong emotion like grief, terror, or despair, happiness is a choice - if you wait until you have a “perfect” life, whilst worrying about all the things that can go wrong, you’re actively choosing to both delay happiness, and prevent it creeping in by thinking the exact kinds of thought that will keep your mind focused on painful ideas.
How many of the things you’ve worried about in life came out as bad or worse than you expected?
And - this bit’s important - where a bad event happened, that you had worried about in advance, did that precursor of worry somehow make a downpayment, that made the actual event itself LESS serious when it did arrive?
I’ve copied below just a tiny excerpt of the book Psycho-Cybernetics that covers this:
I have found that one of the commonest causes of unhappiness among my patients is that they are attempting to live their lives on the deferred payment plan.
They do not live, nor enjoy life now, but wait for some future event or occurence.
They will be happy when they get married, when they get a better job, when they get the house paid for, when they get the children through college, when they have completed some task or won some victory.
Invariably, they are disappointed.
Happiness is a mental habit, a mental attitude, and if it is not learned and practiced in the present it is never experienced.
It cannot be made contingent upon solving some external problem. When one problem is solved, another appears to take its place. Life is a series of problems.
If you are to be happy at all, you must be happy - period! not happy "because of."
Psycho-Cybernetics by Maxwell Maltz, p.98.
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Now, to “Has magick made my life perfect?”
No.
Nor, IMO, should it ever do quite that - it should make my life one where I’m so empowered by the material things of life - money, relationships, status, all that - that I have the strong foundation to continue to perfect myself, to continue to overcome challanges (internal and external) and ever be moving forward with change and growth.
Sure, part of me wants to lie perfectly still in a glass coffin in a perfect world of totally sunny days and starry nights - but that way lies eventual decay, because like it or not, we’re all experiencing linear spacetime and philosophies as ancient as the I Ching recognise that life is about cycles and changes - even the Kybalion mentions this, though it does concede that the adept can begin to lock parts of his or her reality into the vibrational state required.
And therein lies another issue - the more worry you express, the more you’re pouring visualisation and energy into the very things you least want!
Guys like Napoleon Hill talk a lot about this, and IMO that’s some good stuff to seek out (Success Through A Positive Mental Attitude should be available online somewhere, it’s out of copyright) and in the meanwhile, resolve to stop being reactive to circumstances that are already “out there,” in the dead and already decayiong manifest world, and resolve instead to become the creative god of your own reality - this is actual advice I’ve had from spirits.
Choose to dictate your mood, rather than have it fed to you so you respond like a trained animal; and take responsibility for controlling your thoughts rather than allowing them to be reckless and create strong emotions that undermine your ability to live an enjoyable life right now.
Full disclosure :o) - this stuff has been the main journey of my life, from a very political and angsty family who raised me to be constantly worried about things, plus my own obsessive nature, then I actually liberated myself (still a work in progress) by readings books like Nap. Hill’s work and so on, Psycho-Cybernetics being relatively recent and probably one of the best.
As I changed my reactions, my external world changed for the better - as I took back mastery of my mind and emotions, so I acquired more mastery in the outer world, and also within magick, going from being a passive person looking for the only path out (RHP) to choosing to become an active person with my ongoing goal - to command the powers of a goddess, within my lifetime (yeah, I know that’s nuts!).
Use magick to change the crap life throws at you of course, we all do that, but meanwhile focus on releasing the corrosive worry, you can’t handle bad shit on an installment plan, so why suffer ahead of time? (Far harder than it sounds, I KNOW!)
