Its Valentines day. i baked cookies for my boys - theres one at the alter, one for the ancestors and I cant forget the Ravens.
I cannot remember any real significance of my dreams.
I did wake up a few times once at 2:40 am I decided to practice on my phys. vampire skills- I cant tell you if they are working but I do sleep solidly afterwards. I like the Idea that I am sucking the fucking life out of someone who had made it their hobby to fuck my life up.
Whats funny is I am not every girl- I am loyal beyond the grave. I love beyond the ring. I am going to curse you past you last pulse you screw with my family. These girls thought it was funny to send romantic cards , flowers and personalized clothing to my man. They felt the need to send him gifts so often that he had to get his own mail box. They even made him a personalized CD of their songs. Wait - and you met me and knew he was married. They poisoned his mind… and poisoned my heart. In the midst of this they really fucked up 3 years of my childrens lives… I cant take their pain away I cant take away the part where my youngest has attempted suicide - and thanks to my ancestors they pushed me out of the house to find him - just in time.
Oh back on track - sorry for the derailment
I get to meditate on Baal today. Oh I am so freakishly excited he was my 2nd demon to call on and I had the most amazing dreams- funny dreams but amazing. Since working with him last month my art work has improved and somehow folks are asking to buy my stuff… yes!
Mediated this Morning with Lucifer - I am grateful for his blessings on me. and funny thing is I was singing this song while getting everyone out the door