Like many along the path, I have a lot of unresolved issues and sorrows to deal with to ascend. For me, these issues manifested themselves as depression, apathy, and then anger. Now, making strides and practicing occultism has left a mark and made improvements, but there is work to be done. We come as we are to get where we want to be.
Rebuilding of self isnt as easy as it seems, but its also not as hard as we tend to think. Our thoughts and actions leave residual energy within us, (why mantras and affirmations are important. You need enough of them to drown out your daily self criticism). So i asked the Lightbringer for some advice on what to do.
- Lay down, relax, get into a state where you are receptive to energy. I lay down with my left hand facing my feet, and right hand towards my head. As above so below.
- Bring your sorrows to critical mass. All the pain, all the shit you wont like thinking about, betrayals, loss, disappointment, wrongdoing, feel it all flow throughout your being. You will feel the negativity envelope you, particularly around your chakras
With the negativity reaching critical mass, it should be solid enough for even inexperienced energy workers to manipulate.
Place your left hand over your root chakra. Focus on all the negativity you hold, that is within that chakra’s domain. Had a decent amount of heartbreak, and hardship with basic necessities of life, aso my root chakra had a lot to do with that. With your left hand, grasp the energy, and pull it out. What you will visualize is personal, for me the energy was toxic and pus-yellow.
When you have the chakra’s negativity/poison in your hands, FUCKING BURN IT. During this tutorial, i got some advice on breathing, and moving energy from root to throat and out. ‘The black fire rises to your need, breathe it out into the world, and make your mark’ in essence, gather the black fire and breathe it out, burning your negativity, reducing it to the dark matter of the Void and returning the energy to potential.
After doing so, your chakra may be a little ‘off’. Place your left hand back at starting position, and your right hand upon the chakra. Now, breathe life into your chakra.
This part is the hardest for me to describe. For me, it’s buildup is similar to bringing the black flame forward and blowing it out, however when the energy reaches your throat, you switch from the caustic burning flame, and let out a cooling breeze.
Physically, breathe out the flame like youre trying to fog a window, and then breathing life is like trying to cool off your soup.
Repeat this with every chakra.
Now, you are ‘reset’. The affirmations, next steps, etc are for you to decide. Now it is a matter of your mind controlling the habits and emotions your body will try to swing you back into, which is what you are used to. If youre like me, your body has recognized the depression and angst as ‘normal’ and will try to return to that.
But the mind is the state of DOING and the body is the state of what youve BEEN DOING. Even if it is uncomfortable, the body will follow the mind, the old habits will die off or be burnt, and you will be closer to… whatever it is you desire