This isn’t the first time I’ve invoked Lucifer and had sensations that he wanted to be in my body. It happened before, I didn’t like it.
I’m working through Rites of Lucifer and the last invocation, I’m doing them at a window sill, he felt strongly. I had a vision from the later edition to the movie series Exorcist which paints possession as something… well awful and dangerous. I realize this is some obstacle to my spiritual practice.
Also, I notice at some points, as anyone who uses magick will tell you, spirits will engage you during dreams and cause you to wake up in the middle of the night. That’s happened, and I feel his energy at the window sill.
The other day, after some heavy THC use, my girlfriend left to run an errand. I was alone in the apartment and walked into the room. What I saw was the faint shape of a spirits body standing at the window sill. I had hair raise on the back of my neck.
Another phenomenon is that I get pains and sensations in my legs during rituals with Goetic demons which is intrinsic to my Aquarian sign.
These phenomenon are hard to jump into with confidence and reverence, due to our social programming.
Any advice?