First off-- my apologies for apparently having misread you earlier. I hadn’t noticed any direct mention of a block from all future contact, and having read that she’s stubborn made it at least seem otherwise from my perspective at the time. That said: no worries. I understood the feeling which likely motivated you to have written. I’ve never been one to pass a blanket code of morality over any situation if it can be helped. And in saying so, I can appreciate how through his works EA had long ago provided much of the same kinds of tools for solving my own problems without need to rely upon the approval of another. Even my greatest mistakes therewith have since become vital lessons for growth just like with however many. So I don’t hesitate to pass it on either way, personally.
For what it’s worth then, that aside, one time it literally was to be, “never again”. I had accepted it as fact and made my peace the best I could early on- which was tough. After a month of no contact I’d believed it true. So I petitioned a general request to Bael for someone compatible for sake of becoming my girlfriend, in so many words: for her to be brought into my life within the next two weeks. Just two days before that time period had come to pass, my ex had gotten drunk only to have then emailed and texted me about missing me and wanting to talk. And so the sparks began anew. I can almost imagine Bael laughing at my surprise over this particular result when thinking back to the loose wording used. heh That said, maybe it’s arguably best to follow a similar course in not needing it to work out when you have so little direct input unlike I had erroneously assumed? Perhaps as a strategy this would offer the effect of helping to not obsess meanwhile as I had not. If so, then I would say do a meditation on the nonphysical traits you desire in a girlfriend first then vague physical traits before doing a general working to attract a person to satisfy your needs (and vice versa); building it up into a thoughtform for use in ritual. That ritual likely wouldn’t exclude her just as in my case, but moreover, you could do a separate working with Amon for the ex specifically, and also call on Dagdagiel to help with empathetic obsession. Let yourself wait then, or at some point be guided to at least try to message her something pressure-free and pleasant which may at that point stick in her mind unlike before if there’s even one avenue you are not certainly blocked with yet such as email; which can be difficult, if not impossible to do, depending on the provider she uses. Maybe you’ve only been ignored via email until now after all.
As for not feeling or sensing anything during evocations: know that summoning spirits and speaking to them is the easiest part, but quieting your mind, sensing what’s there, and then not censoring whatever may arise is truly the most difficult part for anyone. Once they’re sensed, given the intrinsic need to download and unpack most spirit visions et al into something understandable to the conscious mind, even EA said in a more recent video that he can project his own stuff onto gnosis that’s received if not careful. In the discipline of Technical Remote Viewing such as taught by Maj. Ed Dames, the same kind of error is accepted and dealt with, too. So I would suggest you begin simultaneous work on quieting your mind and becoming receptive. But just roll with it for now and assume success. This is because you could be doing everything correctly apart from silencing your mind to notice the spirit to be able to turn a connection into successful two way communication. So it’s best to assume you are making contact until you can find out you have been. A perfect example would be reflected in experiments I’d made with the awesome mercury zone angels (see: p. 220-) a few years back. Evocations I had prematurely considered failures could turn around to produce results for you at least as rapidly as I’d seen firsthand. In fact, perhaps the worst thing a person could do is to abandon any evocation somewhere after having started without a dismissal of the spirit they only assumed hadn’t arrived as this could begin to dump a disruptive amount of energy into your life without a goal.
Toward actively building base skill in evocation, feel free to look up tratakam meditation if curious. And if so, you will strongly want to consider making a samadhi lamp for the purpose (which can easily be googled, too). I made my samadhi lamp out of a piece of cardboard cut out into a flat, disc-shaped shade from the broad side of a cereal box, a table lamp fixture taken off its base used to hold the lightbulb, and a plastic translucent shaving cream cap poked through the center of the cardboard shade to dull the light enough that I could stare at it unphased once hung above me. Poke Runyon suggested this practice in some book or another, and it really had made a huge difference for me compared to other meditation methods. If any one practice pushed me forward far enough and fast enough to recommend, it’d be this.
On a more personal note, I could strongly suggest considering a tour of the Enochian tablets: moving through one tablet per month from the top of the hierarchy down regarding each. And work with the Mercury Zone angels of Bardon to help build up a base of vital initial experiences. Lastly, given the seeming challenge of successful conscious communication with the deeper mind for just about everyone, I suggested something on here about using the crutch of a mental placeholder type visualization for sake of kicking off your evocations a few weeks back; aiding in forming a conscious, symbolic link:- something I’d soon after seen appear helpfully in another post for beginners to evocation here.