Left hand path vs right hand path SPECIFICS
i made a post awhile ago about frusteration and the left hand path vs right hand path. i only want to talk to people who are more adept in how to take these paths. what i really want is this, freedom to do what i want, how i want and when i want without hurting anyone else. i do not want to follow some divine plan or be bossed around into doing anything
What path is this? middle hand path? i would rather be self deified or have my own conscious choice, rather then being desolved into the all . I want to follow the dreams and goals that i have right NOW and nothing else, i am searching for longevity, i want to see where the human race is going and i also want to make money and travel. I do not want these desires to be burned away. The real problem is im undergoing a kundalini awakening. others on this forum have stated that i can take the left hand path with this, but i dont understand how that is possible, because once the energy has gone through your higher chakras and eventually out the head chakra you are dissolving your ego into the all and becoming something else all together. How can i keep my ego mind yet still ascend and follow my own will. kundalini is a process that doesnt stop until completed, yet how can people tell me i can keep my ego or choices if it is a one way track? i dont understand why wanting to become our own god and self deification is satanic? what is wrong with advancing our self and ascending to our own will. What do i have to do to follow a middle hand path and how can i make sure i dont dissolve my ego and self into the all if im undergoing a kundalini awakening and have the snake energy active . is there different ways of directing this energy? or is this just a lightbody activation that does a one way process and no stopping it. hoping people can give me some insight