Leaving the left hand path. This All started from doing love magick…

Welp. It was fun while it lasted. Now know @Mulberry knows a bit about my situation maybe I know there are a lot of people on here that you’ve given advice and guidance to so IDK how much you remember about my specific situation but yeaaa shit done really hit the fan.

I have been trying to keep track of everything to a certain extent on here so that my journey and Lessons can help others but man I’m so tired. I’m so drained and every time I post on here I don’t really get many responses so IDK if I even really want to talk about what’s going on with me.

I just got a tarot reading from a really good reader about my situation he gave me a nice detailed description about what’s going on to be honest that may be all I’ll ever have the energy to post on here. I like when people care about me and value what I have to say and I don’t feel like that about this forum which is why I only post out here when I feel like I have nowhere else to turn.

This post is not like that. Nor will any post that posted in the future be.

I want this post to serve as IDK I guess maybe like a warning or to like help people on this here “left-hand path”

Alistair Crowley and other left-handed guys all have had similar things happened to them before they died, they all were shocked like oh fuck! When they died, like at that moment, they knew they made the wrong decision and chose the wrong path.

This post not to tell you not to choose the left-hand path or what is right or wrong. I’m just talking about myself my situation, my perspective, etc.

I’m most likely going to go more into detail anbout everything in journal entries about n here but then again IDK.

For now I’m just going to post the reading that I got. Feel free to ask me any questions make any commentary give any constructive criticism, you can say anything you want. I’m definitely open to discuss but yeaaa I unfortunately have no choice, but to choose light now.

:receipt: Susan SOS Kipper Reading for Abria Monet
Timeframe: August 1–31, 2025
Question: Will (anonlb) go to jail over recent confrontations and illegal involvement with a man she was dating? What does Spirit want her to know, and how can she fix this?

Spread Used: Susan SOS (Spiritual • Occupational • Survival)
Deck: Kipper Oracle
All original cards preserved

:crystal_ball: Card Positions & Pulls:
Position Area Card

  1. Spiritual Root Card 6 – Mature Woman
  2. Current Situation Card 10 – Journey
  3. Legal Exposure Card 20 – House
  4. Karmic Trap / Hidden Enemy Card 18 – Child
  5. Mental/Emotional State Card 31 – Short Illness
  6. Judgment / Outcome Pressure Card 39 – Community
  7. Spiritual Consequence Card 14 – Message of Concern
  8. Escape / Solution Card 37 – Poverty
    Bottom of the Deck Card 11 – Sudden Wealth

:nazar_amulet: FULL READING FOR (anonlb)
:one: Spiritual Root – Card 6: Mature Woman
The spiritual cause of this situation comes from ignoring wiser advice, acting out of wounded pride, and failing to listen to someone older, spiritual, or maternal. This could be:

A karmic ancestor or female spirit who is watching everything unfold

A mother figure she has spiritually wronged or distanced from

A sign that Abria is being spiritually told: “Grow up before Spirit humbles you.”

This card says: you knew better.
But instead of slowing down or listening, you chose pride, secrecy, or the man—and now Spirit is stepping in.

:two: Current Situation – Card 10: Journey
You are in motion. This case is already moving forward—whether you see it or not.
This can represent:

Ongoing surveillance

Pending charges that haven’t landed yet

Legal processes, paperwork, or background investigation moving silently behind the scenes

You are not in jail yet, but this situation is on track to deliver you there unless you derail it fast.
This is not a warning—it’s a moving train.

:three: Legal Exposure / Public Consequences – Card 20: House
The law or others involved know about your home, living situation, or what went down inside someone’s residence.
This may involve:

Evidence tied to the address

Witnesses from the neighborhood

Domestic disturbances or police reports related to the man

This shows your sense of privacy has already been breached. What was “between y’all” is now official and exposed.

:four: Karmic Trap / Hidden Danger – Card 18: Child
The biggest trap in this entire case comes from something you thought was “small.” This could be:

A child involved, either physically or through accusations

Immature behavior that spiraled into legal danger

A lie or cover-up that seemed harmless but now carries legal weight

This card also reveals the man you were with may have pulled you into deeper danger than you realized, possibly involving minors, false claims, or past records.

:five: Mental/Emotional State – Card 31: Short Illness
Your mental health is in crisis, and your soul is collapsing under spiritual pressure. You may be feeling:

Lost, hopeless, or numb

Burnt out emotionally

Tempted to give up, disappear, or hurt yourself

Haunted by nightmares, voices, or pressure you can’t explain

Spirit is telling you: Check yourself in before you’re checked in involuntarily.
Voluntary hospitalization or emotional rehab could save your life—and protect your case.

:six: Judgment / External Pressure – Card 39: Community
You are being watched, judged, and talked about.
This can involve:

People who know the story and are preparing to testify or expose more

The community reacting to what you’ve done (especially if violence, lying, or threats were involved)

The legal system treating this as a pattern, not an isolated event

But this card also shows: You’re not alone.
Help is available—but you have to stop going to chaotic people and find grounded, real support.

:seven: Spiritual Consequence – Card 14: Message of Concern
This is Spirit’s final warning.
You’re going to get a wake-up call this month—a letter, court notice, confrontation, or dream—that says “You’re out of time.”
You’ll feel it in your body. You might even break down when it hits.

This card means:

Something will shake you—hard

Spirit is trying to save you from jail or worse

But you only get one more sign before the situation turns permanent

If you ignore it? Spirit will let the consequence fall.
If you listen, you still have time to change direction.

:eight: Escape Route – Card 37: Poverty
You have to lose something to save everything.
Spirit says your only safe path is:

To let go of the man, the lifestyle, the drama, and the pride

Accept temporary loss of freedom (like checking in voluntarily)

Humble yourself before the court, your family, and your guides

You are not above this.
If you let your ego talk louder than your survival instincts, you’ll end up with less than nothing.
If you get humble, Spirit will rebuild you from the ground up.

:small_red_triangle_down: Bottom of the Deck – Card 11: Sudden Wealth
Hidden beneath all this mess is an unexpected blessing.
This could be:

A judge willing to give you leniency

A spiritual worker who steps in

A last-minute delay that buys you time

But this blessing only activates if you listen, surrender, and act now.
You don’t have to lose everything—but you have to stop pretending you’re untouchable.

:balance_scale: FINAL VERDICT: Will Anonlb Go to Jail?
If you do nothing:
Yes. Jail or mental health confinement is almost certain.

If you act now:

Voluntarily check in to a treatment facility

Cut all ties with the man

Accept the message of concern when it hits

And follow spiritual instruction
→ You can delay, reduce, or avoid sentencing altogether.

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I think you foresaw this back in Feb, and we’re trying to course correct but needed a bit more healing faster than events caught up with you?

This feels right. A big change will also switch up the energy you in and make it easier to shed the energy binding you into a harsh situation. Getting out of it so it’s no longer holding you back will help you move on.

You can also use cord cutting and other techniques to help get rid of the energetic ties, and you can also treat them as if they are parasites and banish. Keep banishing as a health activity daily.

It sounds like a voluntary check in will get you the support you need, people to talk to, more new energy which you can use to help push out the old, and freindly faces.

It’s all good work and a continuation of what you already started. It takes courage to ask for help and you’re going to do great from here on up.

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The stories about what Crowley said before he died are just that stories. He lived upstairs and hit the floor dead as a door nail. The person downstairs heard him fall and went up to check on him. When they got there he was already dead. The stories about what he said was debunked long ago. I also wouldn’t say he was from the left hand path. He was not a nice human but had nothing but contempt for people who he called ‘black magicians’.

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Weirdly enough, I think I’ll be fine. AC did LHP stuff and ended up going downhill before dying. But he had a good life before then. But I had a horrible life. I got abused by my parents, bullied in school, and more. So in that sense, I’m like a reverse AC. So I’m not really worried about it.

Obviously, don’t do illegal stuff to get a boyfriend. I think that’s a given.

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Well the reading looks like it’s entirely made by ChatGPT so as far as we know, it could just be GPT feeding you confirmation bias. Also, LaVey’s last words were a christian rumour and Crowley’s last words are also murky and unclear. People with agendas to convert people to their religion love to use the trope where a supposed atheist or evil person in their eyes said “last words” proving themselves wrong because it’s not like that person can defend themselves after.

That aside though, the LHP is a very individualistic pursuit, that’s the goal after all. It’s about self-ascent and self-development and to do that you need to face everything that lies within you which is no easy task, and the intensity of that can easily lead to people losing direction or seeking unhealthy coping mechanisms. Facing what lies within to truly walk the path of ascent isn’t easy and everyone will have lapses and slipups, but there’s no way to say it’s the wrong path or right one because the right one is the one you choose to lead that works best for you. Intentions matter a lot of course. It’s not for everyone.

But I wanted to say that since you said you have “no choice but to choose light now”. You should choose whatever you think is best for yourself and practical, even if that’s no path, but you shouldn’t let yourself feel backed into a corner or forced to choose something. It’s dualistic thinking to think light and dark are at conflict or impossible to reconcile, balance is key in everything.

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I don’t want to derail too much but is there a thread on this and Anton Levay when as he was dying and his supposed exclamation?

  1. He was apparently pacing up and down his room,said ‘I am perplexed’ and then dropped down and passed over. Better than slow deterioration in a care home wouldn’t you say?

  2. Uttering ’ I am perplexed’ could be interpreted as ‘It’s all wonderful and I am in awe’…it isn’t a ‘Oh fu.ck I sould’ve stayed Christian and should not have practiced magick’.

3… Besides he wasn’t LHP …quite the opposite, he warned against deviation form one’s own ‘personal’ Angel of God…albeit a God which was composed of 3 different Gods aligned to the Pharaonic pantheon.

But no one was with him. The story I believe comes from his editor Symonds? Why he picked Symonds to be his editor no one knows. He did not even believe in the occult.

I didn’t do anything illegal “to get a boyfriend” lol