The aftermath of that unlocking: one intense dream, one intense meditation.
A_Pariah:
I fell into the pool, sinking deep with no way up. The water filled my nostrils up to my head; I felt as if the water was bursting out of my skull as a violet light. (I did Sahasrara meditations, yesterday. With a very similar sensation). The visualization ended.
Ana Meditation log:
While reciting “Hu” and breathing into the lemniscate pattern, the violet light returned into my head. It formed itself from a shapeless and weightless light into a solid violet plate. This plate shoved itself down from my scalp right into my brain and in front of my eyes. Quite a bit like one of these old Bundeswehr flashlights, the ones with the colour filter plates that one had to push up in front of the bulb. I opened my eyes and instead of my environment I could see a fountain, with the violet filter in front of me. My forehead felt numb, my eyes burned a little.
When I closed my eyes again the scenery changed into a different room; I wasn’t alone anymore. I could see the white outlines of three other persons sitting with me in a small circle, meditating with me. I couldn’t hold the vision.
My forehead is still numb and I can’t move my eyebrows.
The imagery fits into my experience with my last Sahasrara meditation; I’ve dealt with a violet light in there, as well. It was less tangible and less defined compared to this.
Dream log after the unlocking with Qadim:
I am pregnant, somewhere along the seventh or so month. It doesn’t show much yet but soon I’ll need more than baggy sweaters and long jackets to hide that fact. I have every reason to hide it; the war has arrived at my very gates. I can smell the oily smoke emerging from what has been the industrial zone of my current residency. There are several fires in the city around the house I am living in. I am calculating how much time I have left until I need to give birth somewhere. I am taking stock of preparation material and try to fit it into a backpack. I don’t even wonder about how I ended up like this; all I know is that I need to sneak my way out of the city. A missile hits the railroad bridge right beside my residency and sets the neighbouring trees on fire. All of a sudden I can feel the urge to walk towards the fire in question. I ditch the backpack and the plans. Its the same moment where I notice that the movements in my belly have stopped. It feels a bit sad but it comes as a relief, as well. I walk down the stairs towards the burning place in my garden.
I will go to Thu’ban next, after Samhain is done. For some reason I feel especially giddy with anticipation about that one.
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