Thank you so much @Morgana9! Yes, I’ve noticed Santa Muerte & Glasya both have been encouraging me to get over my fears. I understand it’s necessary & I am grateful they’re helping me. I just get surprised at how much care they give to us. I’m used to the Christian God ruling through fear, so to be comforted & guided though facing my fears to get stronger… well, it’s very different! Being guided is awesome. Though, yes, giving up control is difficult! Thanks again & I’ll give updates on the spider if I see her, again! 
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Concerning the lunar days & mansions, my job spells seem like they’ll do well, but I’m wary about the waning spells. Lemme see what other options I have for them.
Waning Moon (banishing Christian influence spells)
Days: Monday & Saturday
Hours: Moon & Saturn
Monday, May 20th (before 12:04pm) = Moon in Sag (good for: “any sort of religious activity, connection to higher purpose, spirits, Gods”), 21st Lunar Mansion (“Essence: Enmity, argument and conflict.” “Causing destruction. Separate lovers.” “Geliel wrathful is helpful to put discord between two people and to make servants flee.”), 16th Lunar Day (ok by this & fine by the other site). That all sounds good. Now I just need a Saturn hour before 12:04pm on that day (oh please).
Alright, I got it: Saturn Hour = 6:39 AM – 7:52 AM
Ok, other options. I could do a Tuesday for war.
Tuesday, May 21st (after 2:56pm) = Moon in Cap (good for: “Any spells related to… fatherhood or your relationship with your father are appropriate here. All types of banishment”), 22nd Lunar Mansion (good for: “Healing. Escaping from difficult situations.” “Good for healing… free captives, cure illness. Mercury herb incense” “Geliel wrathful is helpful… to put discord between two people and to make servants flee.”), 17th Lunar Day (good for: “This day makes a good foundation for new and important beginnings. Symbol - the bell. The day of acquiring inner freedom. This day is connected with transformation of feminine energy.”) Ok, that sounds good. Now an hour after 2:56pm.
Moon Hour: 6:54 PM – 8:07 PM, Saturn Hour: 8:07 PM – 8:54 PM, Jupiter Hour: 8:54 PM – 9:40 PM (Theoretically, I could use all of these in a row.)
Saturday, June 1st (before 5:52pm) = Moon in Taurus (eh), 28th Lunar Day (“This day is successful for beginning new important activities. Symbol - the lotus. A beneficial day. Comprehension of higher truths, acquiring the spiritual consciousness, the alchemy of the soul. One can work with the astral body, with clairvoyance, chakras, dreams, gaining through this the knowledge of one’s previous incarnations. One should be in an elevated mood, should control one’s emotions, peer into oneself.” “Good for beginning an important pursuit… it improves health.”), 5th Lunar Mansion (good on all 3 sites, sandalwood incense).
Moon Hour: 12:47 PM – 2:02 PM (I have a real good feeling about this one.)
Ok, so, to summarize:
Waning Moon (banishing Christian influence spells)
Monday, May 20th – Saturn Hour = 6:39 AM – 7:52 AM (get outta my head carve candle)
Tuesday, May 21st – Moon Hour: 6:54 PM – 8:07 PM, (outta head bath – lavender incense)
Saturn Hour: 8:07 PM – 8:54 PM, Jupiter Hour: 8:54 PM – 9:40 PM (meal)
Saturday, June 1st – Moon Hour: 12:47 PM – 2:02 PM (outta head candle – sandalwood incense)
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Wuu love your journal! I am following/ stalking 
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Hehe, thank you so much! 
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Ok, I just want to make sure I don’t fuck myself up combining Mars & a waning moon. Mars, Saturn, & the waning moon definitely makes me wary. So I’m double-checking what I’m gonna put in my bath, cause I don’t want to find out, “Oh, yes, bay leaves absorbed through the skin causes convulsions, didn’t you know that?” or something. Trust me, I’ve fucked up some things like that before. 
I hope my meal doesn’t end up giving me the magickal runs or something. 
“YES, PUKE THAT CHRISTIANITY OUT! GOOD!” So, yeah…
Bath: Basil, bay leaves, rosemary, wintergreen, lavender epsom salt, & sea salt. (I changed the ingredients up just a little.)
Ok, here’s a basil bath ritual, but it uses an infusion with a washcloth… might there be a good reason for that? Might it burn mucus membranes or something?? Hmmm… found another site that says Madonna takes basil baths & showed leaves floating in her tub, but that doesn’t mean it’s all good. Alright, this site mentions basil, rosemary, & sage. It gives a warning about sage which is warranted, so I have a little faith it might give good info. Wow, this site is really bad. Stinging nettle in your bath? Really? Hahaha! Ok, this site sounds pretty good. Apparently, basil baths are used in Santeria. It also has this little nugget:
" Purification Bath:
Mix basil, eucalyptus and rosemary into some epsom or kosher salt. Add 3 tablespoons of this mixture into your bath. To banish bad habits or negative energy, perform a spiritual bath by lighting two black candles at each side of the tub. Mix the salt mixture into a warm bucket of water and pour over your body, from the top of your head to the bottom of your feet."
I’m going to assume basil & rosemary are bath safe. I’m mostly worried about the Bay Leaves. Amount is important, too, which is why I included the above.
Oooh, jackpot on bay leaf baths! She also gives proportions for the recipe.
Ok, good, I’m not gonna poison myself or use too many “fiery” herbs that burn my ass (literally, lol). Just wanted to make sure. P.S. Something I learned the hard way, if you take a bath with any “fiery” effects (menthol, eucalyptus, etc.) DO NOT put one of those back pain patches on your back right after you get outta the tub! The opened pores & maybe “fiery” oils make your back feel like it’s on FIRE! 
This has been your bathing safety tip of the day. 
Well, fuck. I started looking up the properties of Oleum Lauri, parthenolides, & eugenol. The oil from bay leaves is astringent. And eugenol can be hepatotoxic & cause convulsions – SEE, I TOLD YOU! Ok, definitely not using a cup of the crushed leaves, now. Maybe just a few leaves?
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All of those skills are hypnotic phenomena and can be developed in trance.
You should have little to no problem developing all of those skills with a dedicated Muerte altar.
Ask her about doing this and ask her to guide you to a hypnotist who can train you in all of these skills. It shouldn’t take long for you to exhibit them in trances; with Muerte’s guidance, proper hypnosis training, and a few trance triggers, you should also be able to do them while in conscious waking state.
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Thanks. I can do some consciously with no problem. I’m not keen on being hypnotized. I’ll get there. Thanks.
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May 13th, 2019
Ok, before I forget:
- *finish painting coffin decor
- *paint painting of her for her altar
- *draw drawing of her for novena candle
- *touch up paint on her new altar
- make another rose
- take shot of rum with her
- novena at a later date
So, I made room for Santa Muerte’s new altar, yesterday, on Mother’s Day. I set it up, but I still have a few little things left I need to do for it. But I’m mostly pleased with it. I wish it could be better, but she told me it was ok & she likes it. 
Here’s the whole thing.
And here’s the top of the altar.
I’ll have to shuffle things around when I do her novena & use other candles. I’ll probably have to temporarily move the flowers to another shelf to make room.
A May 12th Mother’s Day is a very rough day for me. Mama came to me the night before & comforted me & even brought a friend (male skeleton) to also comfort me! I am so very grateful. It was wonderful. I have no doubt in my mind that she did this, cause the way I instantly relaxed was truly supernatural. I don’t get along well with my biological mother. Today I felt much more that Santa Muerte is my real mother. I celebrated her. I wish I knew who her friend is that she brought with her. I have to look into this. He was very very nice, as well. I love them both. 
I was trying to be strong & not acknowledge how upset I was, but she knew I was hurting & came to soothe me. Such a wonderful & kind mother.
Glasya has mostly been gone, for days. He drops by for a little while, sometimes, then goes, again. I’ve been worried about my agreement with him, some, because I’m not entirely sure about all the details. He asked if he killed those guys for me if I’d follow him for life & I agreed. But what does following him for life really mean? I’m not really sure. I know that’s foolish of me to agree to something without really understanding, but, Hell, I’m desperate & I wasn’t fully conscious the first time I agreed.
I was worried having Glasya kill those 2 guys for me will damn me to Hell. Still worried, I guess. I’m not sure what will happen to me, after I die; what my afterlife will look like. I feel like I may be with Glasya. Serving him. I’m not sure. I probably won’t get into Heaven, though. I’m scared, but trying not to freak out about it. Since Glasya can cause love between enemies, I tried to backpedal & get him to just make them think kinda well of me, but not interested in me enough to really give more than a passing thought to me, but he wouldn’t have it. He was like, “No, we’re doing this.” So, I guess I have no choice, now. Idk. My dealings with Glasya are much MUCH different than with Santa Muerte. Harder to understand. I do want both of those guys dead, though. It’s the only way I’ll truly feel secure & safe & free. 
I saw the numbers “444” twice, very close together, the other day. This site says, “Above all, when you see number 444 repeatedly, the Universe wants you to know that whatever you’re going through, you’re going to be okay.” I really hope that’s true. The site is goofy, but I need a little reassurance.
I’ve been thinking about how before I asked Glasya to call off the murders, I was afraid he’d kill my loved ones &/or me, instead. I wondered how that was any different from Christianity – the ruling through fear of horrible shit. I kinda felt like maybe Glasya was testing me; seeing if I had the courage to stand up to him & say no, even though it may mean my worst fears coming true. To overcome my worst fears. Both he & Santa Muerte have been working with me on facing & defeating my fears. I hope it’s that or something similar. I can’t remember if I gave Glasya the timeframe of until the end of this year or a whole year to eliminate the men. I mostly feel like it’s not going to happen & I have nothing to worry about. Idk. I have some internal conflicts.
Oh yeah, I wanted to apologize for how I worded something in a previous post. I said I had good reason to want those “men” dead, because it wasn’t like an angry at your ex thing or whatever. Wanting an ex dead is PERFECTLY valid & many probably deserve to die. I just meant this was even MORE justified in my mind, because I NEVER had any love for these people, so there are no mixed emotions there. No tenderness or thoughts of better times – just all horrible things from start to finish. I didn’t mean to insult anyone. I hope I made that clear & not even more misworded.
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I wanted to share some photos. I ordered a bunch of occult supplies. I already got one shipment & I’m waiting on 2 more. I tried to make a statue of Santa Muerte, but my artistic skills weren’t up to the task. (I was laughing like crazy at how bad it was turning out, but Santa Muerte was not amused! Which surprised me, cause she does have a good sense of humor.) Anyway, after I realized I wasn’t going to be able to make one, I ordered one, instead. It’s a Day of the Dead statue, rather than a statue specifically of Santa Muerte, but it spoke to me, so that’s what I got. It’s so nice to get back into magick, again. I’m still rebuilding my supplies. Let me show off some of my goodies, huh? 
I actually need/ed some of the basics, believe it or not. I can’t find my cauldron & if I gave it away, I’m going to be really upset with myself. It was PERFECT, ARGH! (And, ironically enough, I bought it at a church rummage sale along with the censer chains for it.) I don’t use a wand, never saw the point when you have an athame. Speaking of athames, I needed a new one. Here’s my old one & my new one. 
I need a new chalice, too. I have many goblets & such I can use in the meantime, but I do need to get a simple glass one. I used to use a brass one & almost bought a silver one, but then I realized a clear glass goblet symbolizes water much more to me than those. I found one I liked at an antique store, recently. I need to go back & buy it. I guess I need a pentacle, but the new incense burner I got can work for now.
I have other incense burners I can use, while using this as a pentacle. I did order a new cauldron, just in case I was a fucking moron & gave away my old one. I use my cauldron like an incense burner, rather than for liquids. The chalice is for the water element. I’m sorta thinking of adding a bowl, too, hmmmm.
I ordered this for use as a boline, last year. I haven’t used it, yet, but i plan to, soon.
I also got a bone-handled “ripper” knife with the free stuff this one company sent me. (I placed a very big order & they sent me about $50 of free stuff as a thank you!!! I LOVE that store! Went back & ordered some more.)
I also got 2 new mortar & pestles. The mortar of the old one I had was bowl-shaped & hard to hold while grinding, so I got some in old-school designs. The flared bottom & bottom with a pedestal/lip make them easier to hold while grinding.
The dark one is for poisonous substances & the light one is for food-grade stuff. Both are marble & very heavy!
Now onto CANDLES! WOOOO! Oh yeah, I said before I’d take a pic of the jumbo tea light candles I got. Here’s a regular & jumbo tea light.
I use the jumbo ones in Santa Muerte’s lantern.
I also got SM this regular tea light holder. I had to put a tissue inside it for you to see the skull. (I thought this would look better than it does.)
I also needed to replenish my chime & taper stock. Here’s some baby chime candles for the quarters – aren’t they cute?!
And the taper equivalents.
(I accidentally switched Air & Fire in the pic, I know.)
I have this plaque on the wall next to my altar, lol.
This is the ring I was going to offer to Glasya, but he said I could keep it. I guess he didn’t like it cause it wasn’t gold, lol!
I have to say, it’s nice to have my altar back. I need the room to work.
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Really cool stuff
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uuuuuuhhhhwwwww bought yourself gifties huh? 
i loooooooovvvvveeeee gifties, waiting for them and finally receiving them, freaking awesome 
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Thanks.
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Haha same here.
Making it rain in the esoteric shops haha!
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Haha, yep! They see us comin & start rubbing their hands together, lol!
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BIIIIIIIIG SPENDUUUUUUUURSSSS! 
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Wonderful stuff you’re really spoiling her… and she loves that 
The ring is beautiful 
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