I also wasn’t sure how well Santa Muerte & Glasya would be able to work together. I’m kinda assuming he’s just gonna kill them & she reap their souls. She said she’s always there when he kills people, anyway. I was wondering if I made a mistake accepting Glasya’s offer & even went so far as to look up his corresponding angel, just in case I needed help against him. Then I looked up the guardian angel for my date of birth (I didn’t know they had certain ones that went by birthdays) & guess what mine is? The fucking Angel of Submission to the Lord. Fuck that.
This is the seal & info about the angel that corresponds to Glasya-Labolas. https://www.guardian-angel-reading.com/blog-of-the-angels/nith-haiah/
So I was worried & freaking myself out. I had gotten my giant package of occult stuff I ordered, which included a tarot deck, so I did a little 5 card spread to test them out. I asked, “What am I thinking about?” and the results seem pretty accurate. Here’s the spread:
Card 1 (The Question): Temperance – right what is wrong internally, restore what is lost, cool what is hot, balance, harmony. Fusion of two contrasting elements, to bring into harmony within your mind or spirit. Tempering extreme emotions & need for cooperation. Angel. Male. Fire. Jupiter. The Christian Trinity. Nov. 27-Dec 21
Card 2 (Events that led to the ?): The Devil – Bondage, temptation, seduction. Earth. Saturn. Capricorn. (One of the two guys is a Cap.) Human nature prevails over spirituality.
Card 3 (What you’ve tried or your strength or weakness): 4 of Swords Reversed – Alarm. Faith. Prayer for healing. Need to grab the sword behind you to fight off the 3 coming at you. (3 = Glasya + the 2 guys?!)
Card 4 (The Influence of Others): 2 of Pentacles – Multitask. Juggling prospects or possibilities. Two. Balance. Dualism. Relates to Temperance. Temperance is internal, 2 of Pents is external. The two will harmonize. Proceed.
Card 5 (Outcome): 6 of Wands Reversed – Delayed victory. Victory, but perhaps not satisfaction. You’ll win the battle, but will you win the war?
I was going to do another reading to clarify this one. My question, that I wrote down, was: “What will happen to me, in regards to Glasya?” BUT before I could do a spread for that… Glasya came to me. I had been questioning whether I really contacted him or not. He wrapped himself around me & I could feel the heat & breath from his mouth as if a dog really was next to me. He was saying stuff like he was gonna prove to me that he is real. He transformed into a decently fit (not super muscley, but some muscles with a little softness), young man with blonde hair. Descriptions I’ve seen on his human form say he’s a teenager, but he appeared to be in his late 20s to 30s. He seduced me & it felt fucking amazing. I was not touching myself, but my body was reacting as if a man was really giving it to me good. I told him I believed he was real & shared my fear that he would like my enemies better than me & perhaps turn on me. He sort of chuckled & said why would he do that when he could have 3 of us? He asked if he killed them for me, if I’d follow him for the rest of my life & I agreed. He said he wouldn’t let them hurt me. 3 is better than 2. The cool practicality of that makes me a little wary, but I understand his point. Later, Santa Muerte also reassured me that she would not let them, living or dead, hurt me again.
Ok, so, you’re probably wondering why I want some people dead. (I realize I’m more of a “sunny” person than not.) Well, I have good reason. This isn’t like a broken heart or get even with an ex or something like that. One guy orchestrated a violent gang rape on me (with a foreign object) when I was a child. He was a child, too. I had to have surgery to repair the damage that caused. This guy, who was the leader, orchestrated it & sat on top of the monkey bars, watching with a giant grin during the whole thing. They told me if I ever told anyone they’d kill my parents & I believe them. So I didn’t say shit for many years. And I’d finally gotten to the point in my life, after years of therapy & failed suicide attempts… I finally got to the place where I was ok. And then he got back into my life. Started coming into my work & intimidating me (like 30 years after the attack) & somehow got someone to hack into my phone to track my location & ARGH!!! JUST GO THE FUCK AWAY! I didn’t do shit to you, leave me alone! I haven’t seen you in 26 years & now you come back starting shit again?! NOOOOOO!
The other guy, he’s a fucking loser. He’s just a dumb ball of hate that is violent to whatever is in his path. At least the other guy is intelligent, even if it makes him that more dangerous. The first guy is a sadist… so he has emotions that can be manipulated. This second guy is a sociopath or whatever it is where people don’t have emotions. He doesn’t hurt people for enjoyment, he does it out of boredom & just because he can. I don’t know which is worse. Years after we were no longer classmates, he started stalking me on AOL & other ways, too. Telling me what I was doing in my house immediately after I did it & I didn’t even know he knew where I lived. (And the creepy part is – this was back in the beeper/pager days. Cellphones did not get the internet back then & I’m not sure if laptops even existed, yet.) Said he was gonna cut my head off & dump me in the Chicago River. And I never did shit to these people. Called the police on him that time, but they were of no help. Years later he murders some dude because he said something he didn’t like on FB. He got a ridiculously low amount of time for the murder. He was sentenced to 10 years, but I think he was only in jail for 1 year. They always got away with this horrible shit. He terrorized other classmates (two of which died under mysterious circumstances).
If these were high school classmates, it wouldn’t be as bad. But I went to school with these people since kindergarten. They know everything about me. They feel inescapable. And those weren’t the only incidents. I went to the hospital with broken bones & shit because of them, other times, too. I just want to stop living in fear & be free of them forever.
So, anyway, yeah. I’ve lost my edge over the years, thanks to stupid Christianity & not being trapped with fucking psychopaths everyday anymore. (If anyone reading this watches Supernatural, my time with these people was exactly like Purgatory. 24/7, 360 degrees of combat – except I wasn’t a badass grown man, I was a little girl. And I didn’t have anyone else to help me. I’m just grateful I made it out alive… not everyone was so lucky.) I used to be able to fight a little. Not enough to stop them from hurting me (cause they lack honor & multiple boys would mob one girl), but at least enough to say I got some licks in & went down swinging. That I didn’t just take it. That I fought back. But I haven’t had to physically fight for over a decade. I’m fat & old now. I just want to be left in peace.
I hope my meal doesn’t end up giving me the magickal runs or something. 
“YES, PUKE THAT CHRISTIANITY OUT! GOOD!” So, yeah…
