Thank you for the fast reply my friend.
I’ve looked through some of the moloch topics but my individual problem is that on the one hand I feel very drawn towards him although I don’t know much about him (some links would be nice if anyone has some spare time) but on the other hand I as a mostly pacifist and nice guy don’t really want to pray/talk to someone who accepts/demands children to be burnt to him.
Another interesting thing that happened to me not so long ago was: I was sitting on my bed just kinda daydreaming and reflecting on my life when I told myself „maybe I should go to church again“ and „I kinda want to believe in god“.
Now as I was saying that, I grabbed my waterbottle and tried to sip but I splashed it all over my shirt and the bottle fell into my groin area which really hurt 
Again I felt like this did not happen without reason and I hold MOLOCH accountable for this as his image popped into my head just after this incident.
I’d be thankful for further conversations about this.