I’m not entirely sure what is necessary in introductions. I’m just shy of 30, full-time stay at home dad, and student. My 3 young kids are my world and keep pushing to be my best. My personal life is a complicated and has made my mental health and self esteem abysmal, until recently that is. I am unfortunately in no position to leave without risk to my children’s mental and emotionally well being.
I have begun to move on and take steps to take control of my will and my health, physically and mentally. And now I want to add spiritual growth. My desires and current life goals are admittedly selfish, but should they happen it will benefit my family greatly.
I have had a long history of practicing spirituallity revolving around Magick, meditation and evocation since I was a teenager. I’ve tried traditional theistic Satanism, Laveyan, more secular teachings, and the practices produced by Aleister Crowley. I am looking for a home, with a philosophy that includes my own.
I have severe ADHD which makes mediation very difficult. In my experience I have a better natural talent for direct energy manipulation and evocation. I have worked with entities before in the past, years and years ago. I would say they were helpful before, but I was very uninformed at the time of what I was getting into.
Is there a moral standard man should abide by? Is personal benefit at the expense of others selfish? To hide my intentions from those in my life when it suits me, all while working to manifest those intention? Thank you for your help and I hope to learn more.
I started practicing around 15. I’ve practiced since sporadically. Mostly whenever I am in a difficult enough time in life. It tends to fix it, I stop devoting time it, and just drop off over time. I don’t know what specific practices to follow. I described my history in order and have benefits in each. I am looking to find something that feels like it fits me. My goals and interests revolve around direct methods to manifest my personal and financial goals.
You should do as your conscience tells you. I’d advise avoiding regrets, or resolving to have none. Regret isn’t pleasant to live with, so to an extent, being a good person in aid of avoiding pain is also self-serving. There’s usually ways to get what you want without having to throw others under any buses.
Obviously, yes. It’s pretty much the dictionary definition of it.
Depends on the intentions doesn’t it? It’s not always black and white. Self defense vs being an oppressor can change the energy a lot.
Since you’re asking these questions, it seems you have a conscience, so that will guide you.
I appreciate the feedback. I wouldn’t say my goals directly negatively effect others, and any effect it does would be in my opinion justified. Such as developing financial and emotional independence from an emotionally abuse partner who is neglecting parental responsibility and dumping all responsibility for everything on me.
Morality is for you to create and decide and nobody else. Part of the LHP to me is that it’s intrinsically amoral so that each practitioner can use it in a way that adapts to their own morality, going exactly as far as they’d like and doing exactly what they’d want.
Besides that, the thought of being selfish isn’t something that you should concern yourself about, help yourself first and as much as possible and only help others when you’d like to, you’re under no obligation to help anyone but yourself.
