Good morning, afternoon, or whatever generic greeting you prefer.
I am another new member and I have finally decided to actually make an account so that I may actually reach out to you folks. My name is Conor and I am physically disabled ( not paralyzed but I can’t move very much at all. I can type but not much more than that ) and use an electric wheelchair to get around. I am pretty much a 24/7 job to take care of.
The purpose of my reaching out is to see if I might be able to get some direction from someone more knowledgeable than myself.
I am going to be faced with another very long ( probably about a year ) and painful recovery period from an operation which will be performed sometime towards the end of the year or beginning of the next. There are a multitude of things which could go wrong, including being robbed of what little I can do on my own, by way of being fully paralyzed or just outright dead. Because of this, I have been compelled to do some research into “the left hand path.” I hope that’s an acceptable way of putting it.
I only have a cursory understanding of most of this but my goal is to TRY to ask spirits, demons, talking lampshades, etc. if I can do ANYTHING to gain some kind of protection before my operation or at least to know that someone will be watching.
My biggest issue is that I can’t perform the actual rituals that would normally be used to attempt to reach out to these entities. All I have tried so far is to chant the enn for President Marbas and focus on his sigil. I can’t draw so the sigil is unfortunately just on the screen of my iPad.
Not surprisingly, I have been met with no success at this time. I don’t even know if President Marbas is who I should reach out to. I’m not even sure I’m worth His time honestly but I did truly believe that my goal would be within his purview and he might care. This is mostly just guesswork on my part and if President Marbas is not right way to go, that’s all the more reason for someone to tell me how to do better. I don’t know if the Goetic spirits are the right way to go.
I apologize for this long introduction but I hope at least a few of you will take the time to read it. I believe that I am in need of help which you might be able to provide. All I have heard so far is “if you can’t do the rituals, there’s no point.”