Hi everybody 
I’m Maulbeere. (It’s just German for Mulberry) That’s my online handle and I’ve used it for 20 years or so. I’m spiritual but not religious, very Aquarian, very analytical, friendly but not personal. I’m a panentheistic animist, my worldview is a mishmash of philosophies from taoism, chinese traditional medicine, druidry, norse and anglo-saxon spirituality, make-it-up-as-you-go-along hedgewitchery, lightwork (a specific very model) and a gaggle of various ideas or stuff I gathered from all sorts of journeys and investigations. I keep what works for me and don’t worry about the rest. I don’t believe in worship, hierarchies or trust. I’m opinionated but I change my mind a lot, because I’m always seeking and with that the data I base my opinions on changes all the time.
I’m here because through a series of synchronicities and I felt called to work with Azazel. Google Azazel and you find E. A. Koetting’s Book of Azazel pretty much immediately. Spend any time mining E. A. Koetting s youtube channel and you find a wealth of information including this forum. And I’ve been looking for an active occult forum (this isn’t full of bs) on and off for years. Other sources out there are a bit too formulaic for me, not being much into ritual and preferring to do things my own way anyway. So I appreciated the raw information, the honesty and depth of it, which was invaluable. I did purchase the 7 book e-book set as my way of saying thank you; “fair exchange is no robbery”. I have my eye on the Loki course but first thing’s first.
My history with the occult/esoteric started with being a fey kid, with a fey mother,who said never, ever tell anyone the things I saw or felt, and that if I did I would be labeled insane and ‘put away’. I shut down a lot but couldn’t switch off the empathy, and learned to deal with it, mostly.
As an adult I studied Qigong in the US, where Qi Masters could still teach a system that was shut down and made illegal to teach in China. I spent several years learning various forms of still and moving meditation, energy cultivation, and Chinese Transnational medicine and qi healing. The principles still inform my worldview and my understanding of all energy work, including vampirism.
Qigong doesn’t speak much to the topic of spirits and geomancy, The Yellow Emperor’s Classic of Medicine and the Tibetan Book of the Dead notwithstanding - not on a daily, work with entities sort of way. Enter Peruvian and then Celtic Shamanism aka druidry. I studied the Bardic Grade with the UK’s Order of Bards Ovate and Druids… I’m a shitty Bard, I’m not poetic and don’t enjoy teaching stories and mythology, I’m looking for something less illustrative and more in-my-face experiential. Throughout I’d pick up LHP books but would be put off by the obvious bs and failure to get to the point - I couldn’t be bothered to slog though it to distill what was real. I liked Chaos Magick but found too much emphasis on spells focused on basic human petty crap I don’t care about. Politcs, money, sex, I don’t care about any of these and I already meet my own needs on my own terms, with my own efforts under my control.
I am insatiably curious, and sometimes consumed by the stupidity and unfairness inherent to the duality of this planet and want to fix that. For both I need to understand much more - that’s the power I’m working with Azazel for. And so it is.