Hey y’all
27/M
Kentucky
So I’ve been “seriously” practicing magick for about 7 months now. I’m an artist, and initially my main goal is to improve my artistic abilities +skills, but going a little further down the path I want to use magick as well as I can, where and when I can. I’m also pretty poor lol but I’m full of desire and creativity.
Background info:
Raised catholic, went to 12 years of catholic school and always struggled with that faith, left it at 19. dads side of the family is extremely conservative catholic, Moms side liberal episcopalians, my maternal grandfather is a Mason. I’ve had a life long interest in the occult. Had a good knack for tarot reading without knowing any of the symbolism , and I tried to dabble once in chaos magick but stopped after a couple of bad breakups. After that I tried to live as a hardcore atheist until the start of 2023, then I started getting really into Gnosticism, psychoanalysis and Jung. I came across a video on active imagination and encountering the subconscious, and did the exercise described within. It worked on the second attempt and absolutely stunned me. Two days after that I was painting while listening to YouTube and hit Gnosis after hearing the Gnostic version of the Creation story and I’ve been delving into the occult ever since.
The start:
I decided that the overall frame work I’d use is still “chaos magic” for the flexibility of it. I practice multiple systems, though.
I started out with planetary magick, made an altar and procured a good knife. I use renaissanceastrology.com’s planetary practices as well as Homeric hymns and other associations while also noting the ruler of the hour. I started with Saturn, feel closest to Jupiter and have been helped most by Mercury. Ive l been able to apply and integrate this into to my life which has strengthened my faith.
Im good with sigils, as well as seals and inventory made a couple servitors.
I’ve learned the kabbalistic cross, LBRP and I’m starting to memorize the Middle Pillar. I like the golden dawn system and I think that Kabbalah and the Tree of Life is a gorgeous system, but I’m in no formal order. There’s a Rosicrucian group where I live which I consider joining but I’m not entirely sure yet.
I’ve done no work on the “left hand path” because of the bs stigma associated but I’m over that. however:
I was homeless for 2 months this summer. Never ask Saturn for help with your art career cause I didn’t know that Saturn removes responsibilities that you can’t handle (freeing me from them) and I guess that ment my car and apartment. I didn’t abandon my practice this time but doubled down, listened to a lot of Glorian lectures and other general YouTube occult channels. While enduring this I found Gordon Winterfields Demons of Magick. Took around a week or 2 to read and prepare for ritual but when I did i petitioned Seer (who is powerful and gracious and helps all who petition him) and got approved for an apartment which I would have no business normally getting. That made my faith in this even stronger and my magickal practices have definetly strengthened as a result. Interestingly enough , I’m friends with the downstairs neighbor who’s a practicing Wiccan, who told me the guy who lived up here before me was a satanist who worked with a demon and had a staff that he would SA people with to “feed” it. He left the staff here and I broke it after she told me that but I saw the connections so I thought it would be good to add.
So my point with all this isn’t to brag or anything , but I do want to know where y’all think I’m at with my education and what steps I can take next. Money is a massive issue for me and anything that will get me practical results is appreciated. Of course I want to become a better artist, either through inspiration, spells ritual or straight up downloading a new technique lol idc as long as it works. Used to be an alcoholic but I got that under control, smoke a lot of weed and I’ll do crystal every now and then, if that makes a difference to you. Again I’m open to anything, I prefer judeo-Christian systems because of the familiarity with names and figures and past history, but it’s definetly not a requirement. First thing I made in my new apartment was a massive mural of Yamantaka.
Me and the Art:
Thanks so much for reading and for any advice, live strong
