Interpreting a series of events - Ex reconciliation + dreams + life changes

[priestessinmaking]

So for months I have been casting, meditating, manifesting the return of my ex. Things keep happening but they are just adjacent of what I want. My ex’s friends asking me out on a date, his girl bestie asking me for girls’ shopping trips and so on. All this while I have been using subliminals every night to aid this process. Initially I dreamt of him every time played subliminals before bed but then that stopped after a few months. For spells I was working with Amon specifically and then more ritualistic spells.

My interpretation at this stage:
I assumed the spells were working, albeit slowly, basically building back the foundations of my bond with the people he was close to. Then he moved back to my city after briefly losing his job and then finding a new one. I understood that this would take time but I was on the right track. We were in complete no contact so far.

Now this week I had a crash out of epic proportions as I have just moved out of the country and broke no contact with my ex, called him multiple times, texted him and what not. He didn’t answer and he blocked me on all these sources as well. But now I am truly icked out and embarrassed and I genuinely have either gotten over him completely or completely icked myself out. But a few days after that I have started dreaming of him again. And this time the dreams are of us reconciling, finding each other again in weird situations.
I also keep meeting people with the same exact name as his in a brand new country where it is not even a common name, either for work or they are somebody’s friend or brother. It is freaky. And I see a lot of angel numbers too. Now I do not know what to make of it. We didn’t reconcile when we lived on the same street, then he moved away in the same city, and now I am overseas on a project.

My interpretation so far post the crash out:
I think it is the universe and my brain creating a few last moments of chaos and sparks before this chapter is over forever. My other theory is that now I have completely actually lost lust for the results so now the symbolism is stronger.

I am trying to understand if my interpretation is on the right path, am I overthinking this, or is this all a big coincidence?

[Mulberry]

@priestessinmaking

Things keep happening but they are just adjacent of what I want. My ex’s friends asking me out on a date, his girl bestie asking me for girls’ shopping trips and so on.

I get this trying to kill my ex with magick - that it seems like to me, is the energy flow sent is sliding off protections, and having nowhere else to go hits the next people energetically closest to the target - kind of like they’re the next in line.

This would tell me, it’s not his will, and hi will to resist is stronger than your will to overcome his free will.

@priestessinmaking

But a few days after that I have started dreaming of him again. And this time the dreams are of us reconciling, finding each other again in weird situations.

These are probably problem solving dreams and cope. Not a good sign. The problem is not going away and your subconscious is looking for ways to work around it, trying to negotiate with the universe.

@priestessinmaking

My other theory is that now I have completely actually lost lust for the results so now the symbolism is stronger.

The symbolism is the symbolism, but not lusting for results, letting go of the sense of lack and longing, does help stop the negative counter-flow of energy that brings you more of what you spend time dwelling upon. It’s possible this could help change things.

However being blocked everywhere is a sign that he’s having none of it. He is sitting is certainly and you have doubt. As this is essentially a baneful psychic attack on his free will, he has the higher ground and is quite clear on his expected outcome, this make him a tough target. It’s easier to defend than attack and the universe tends to align with the target’s equilibrium.

This is why some people do working with influencing the mind, as well and healers to resolve the energetic blocks and past trauma that reinforce all the reasons why you two are apart. It’s not enough to make him want you, you have to also heal over all the reasons why he doesn’t.

[DarkestKnight]

@Mulberry

It’s not enough to make him want you, you have to also heal over all the reasons why he doesn’t.

This right here. When people start throwing around love spells, they always seem to forget that it is very possible to love someone but not want to be with them because you know they’re not good for you. Love does not automatically mean they want a relationship. Sometimes the most loving thing you can do for someone is to walk away from them.