We have a few baneful curse suggestions that worked in the experience of our members here:
Since you have a lot of rage, you can use that to amplify the working, and there is a curse called the “Ritual Release of Hatred” that would probably work for you.
The “Ritual Release of Hatred” curse from E.A. Koetting’s old youtube channel
Which has a matching Newsletter posted in the Getting Started Guide, and if you try the search, there are a few discussions from people using it.