So the whole issue about my Psy Vamp cousin turned out to be a big lie. They came over today and I scanned him and not long after, I noticed that he was not the thing attakcing me. As much as I forced myself to believe in this, I knew it wasn’t true. His energy was similar to that of Balder and there’s no way this kid even has tendrils.
I’ve come to think that this monster was the poison of jealously of some kind within me but could it even be that strong?
The Gods have been silent. Deeply Silent to the point at which it feels like they’re abandoned me but I sense their presence.
I feel fucking stupid. Sometimes it’s not even outside influences causing probelms but it’s happening within and this can really end up hurting others senselessly and in my case killing someone.
I guess it’s important to know I was wrong and admit it publicly. I’m not a perfect person by any means. I wonder why all my Guides encouraged me to attack. Maybe it was a lesson in jumping to conclusions as this often leads to 99% of problems as opposed to observing a situation.