Few years back I chose to drop any path I took and focus on religion. Mine is Greek orthodox with a catholic mom that is scared of her own shadow.
After a mass I was contemplating on the fact that God wants us to repel all evil and Lucifer can manipulate you and is powerful.
That night I went to bed thinking No he can’t just do whatever he wants… I refuse that.
I had a dream that I cannot forget till today!
I was tight to a pole. Or a tree. But had no chains.
Lucifer on my right… I handsome tall pale man with black hair and a dreamy smile. To his side 3 men that I don’t know but I felt as if they were his companion.
He was inflicting a sever pain on me which I was apparently actually screaming from even in my sleep.
And said in a very clear loud voice… “I can do whatever I want… who are you to stop me?!”
I have to admit that dream made me respect him even more but till today I tried to make my peace with him but failed.
I need his help and he knows. But making me take the very very long hard path for it.
I think that’s why no demon wants to help me unless tasked by someone else.