I don’t usually comment on your material because I disagree with your way of … doing things and your end goals. But this is not my motive from commenting now.
First of all this is of no value whatsoever to anyone except emotional manipulation of people reading those words for a purpose you’re fully aware of. It belongs to personal journals, not to be published like that. We’re not in a church as far as I know.
Second, those kinds of messages are personal. Doesn’t mean anything to anyone except you, even if it’s directed toward others. Because - forgive me - there’s no evidence at all that this “experience” is authentic or real or whatever you want to call it. It’s only true and real for you, unless there’s physical verifiable evidence to support it that others can examine and evaluate. Which you did not provide in your post. That leaves the whole thing to individual beliefs and convictions… and again, we are not in a church, as far as I know.
Third, imagine the whole forum doing the same thing. Shortly you will see tons of Beelzebubs, hundreds of Lucifers and Azazels etc. Soon enough, they will start fighting each other “No he said this, no he said that… that’s not Beelzebub that I know, you’re delusional” and you can see how that ends. A circus and probably few curses!
I hope you understand my concerns and realize that it’s nothing personal. You’re a respectful member and good occultist - personally I hate that you choose this dogmatic religious path in practice but it’s your choice. The only reason for my comment, is the personal nature of this message, and how it could affect other member’s behavior, negatively.
That’s all I had to say. Thanks and good luck