Succubi and Incubi are not like servitors or imps or some everyday astral creature of limited intelligence that you can bottle or banish or do whatever to. They are actually really smart and helpful allies.
But if you work with powerful gods and goddesses then you should be able to keep them locked in an object. I am talking from experience.
And you tell me to calm down, stop blaming yourself just to drop everything? Easier said than done. When you do not see your result, when fear reaps you. I am already disappointed in myself. I seem to have lost my faith.
I am not afraid of Lilith or other Spirits. I am afraid that she will leave, that I will not be able to be with her, that everything I do will not lead to success. That they do not want to see me as a succubus and Lilith
From what I’m interpreting, it sounded like she was bothering you and you tried to tell her off. Some women do get offended when you don’t let them have their way. Some, not all. Don’t let that bother you. If she’s so immature she can’t handle being told No, then she’s not for you.
@HONK From my perspective, it looks like the problem most likely is that you are too caught up with a fear that seems irrational, and to me it’s probably stemming from something else? Like a fear of abandonment? Or a trauma that makes you crave control for the purpose of safety, and so you want that in magic desperately and the desperation can be hindering the result? Your desperation could be what is making your relationship hard. I’m having difficulty understanding the reason for your emotions, she is not gonna leave you but you got to work on yourself.
@Lord_Raven Yeah I’m sure you can bottle them I just meant that it’s mean and unnecessary.
If she leaves you can’t you get another succubus?! Just take it like human relationships. If you had a girlfriend and she breaks up with you then what next?! Will you start crying and waiting for her to come back to you?!
You are probably right, I need to stop being afraid. It is very difficult for me to take emotions under control. Unfortunately, my thoughts prevent me from even meditating, and not only work on myself
She probably does love you but knows that serious work has to be done. If you can’t meditate or work on yourself (i.e. unblocking your energy-emotional body) you won’t advance spiritually and you won’t be able to become more psychic or communicate with her.
I have a problem with mind-clutter too so am doing silent meditation daily now. I have been meditating anyway, but I was using visualisations and whatever else. Silent meditation is critical for quieting yourself down. You need to practice silent meditation without getting frustrated at yourself, and if thoughts come up that make you upset/emotional then you need to introspect and do release work.
The way I do it: Sit cross-legged (but try to be comfortable). You can stare ahead or close your eyes. Empty your mind and think of nothing. Techniques to do this can involve feeling the silence of your mind and trying to stay absorbed by that. Or do something similar to ‘waiting for the sound of thunder after lightning’. And that waiting for a sound that won’t come is the type of silence you want.
Think of and visualise nothing. You WILL notice your mind wander. You WILL realise that for the last three or five minutes you’ve been daydreaming about something and you’ll get mad at yourself. But don’t give up and don’t get mad, simply peacefully pull yourself back into silence. It may take a few attempts before you can do it well. But once you can do it you’ll find the relaxation and focus it brings rather addictive.
I think that before you do something like “get a new succubus” you make sure that your own issues are addressed because if the issue isn’t your current succubus you’re only going to repeat your own heartache, possibly harm your current succubus more and then the new one as well.
Facts are facts and it just seems like you can’t have a relationship with a succubus/incubus if you don’t work on yourself mentally/psychically/magically because that is how you become “sensitive” enough to perceive and interact with her. How well have you trained your ability to psychically receive information? Can you do tarot or interact with beings in evocation? If not, before you get there I reckon you need to do more silent meditation to get rid of the mind-clutter, and do psychological introspection so you can release emotional fears and blockages. Self-betterment.
Why do you think I want a new succubus? I’m still young and I have time to work on myself. I understand that magic and I are two different things. But someone said that nothing is impossible. So give up is not in my plans. And yes, apart from the usual meditation, I did not give anything.