I thought I could do this on my own but I was wrong. Recently, I have been noticing certain things that I can’t find the answers to. The first thing that happened was noticing coincidences. The first coincidence I saw was the cheating names The Cuck and The Bull and noticed that a connection between the terms and Asmodeus considering that Asmodeus was blamed for infidelity and adultery. The second coincidence was the old internet meme challenge called No Nut November and read that Asmodeus’ power is at its strongest on November. Then repeating numbers become more noticeable and the last thing that happens is when I am in a deep day dream, whatever the daydream is about, it appears in real life. Unfortunately, I have been going through a feeling like I don’t have a soul and I need help on understanding this. Whatever information you can give will be helpful.
Sounds like you have three different things going on.
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You are drawn to Asmoday, and possible have an invitations to work with him. In this case I’s day go ahead, get your protections and spiritual hygiene practices on point and then evoke him for a conversation about it.
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You are performing magick in your daydreams. If you don’t want these things to manifest, than practice controlling your thoughts more. If you want them to happen, then this is fine, take it further by practicing deliberate manifestation of what you want through this visualisation. This is literally doing magick so… good job!
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“I have been going through a feeling like I don’t have a soul” - you wouldn’t be alive if you didn’t. Feeling disconnected or dissociated from yourself could be a sig that you need to get grounded better. The easiest and most enjoyable way to do that is to go for a walk in nature. A park or anywhere with threes works well. Failing that just get your shoes and socks off and stand on grass.
Don’t worry about the coincidences, they’re harmless in my experience. I’ve been plagued by synchronicities every day for decades, and usually very high-level ones. I had a couple of those yesterday that would probably even make an occultist go wtf. In my experience daydreams do provoke more of them, or if you have obsessive thoughts, or as you get deeper into magick. They can be disturbing sometimes but are just a natural occurrence.
Alright well… we have a few scenarios but I’m going to provide you with the solution…
It seems you mentioned not having a soul…
This could be the primary aspect of why you are coming up on so many issues…
Your soul is your weapon, the “sword of the Spirit” (try not to get too triggered lol)
Although I would say that if your 3rd eye is becoming over active, it probably means you did not sell your soul…
Certain beings like to play jokes… so yes… No Nut November is a Scam.
If you are seeing repeating numbers you could be breaking free from the matrix, awakening as the Old Gods had.
It’s easy to proclaim to the world you are a God… Much less easy to be one… Generally speaking…
I wouldn’t pursue it too deeply…
Just understand that your power to manifest through “Day dreams” or your 3rd eye is very powerful…
This implys that you do have a soul… even if you are not actively aware/perceiving it
You may believe that the power is coming from the mind… when in reality the mind is a limiting factor used to create differentiation from the chaos
(Study Chaos Magic)
For those of you who understand the information presented… it will be unnecessary… I think the old saying Life’s a Trip applys well here…
Drugs help us break down barriers of the mind (usually) in regards to the ones that are not active poisons trying to kill us…
And yes, Many Drugs did start out this way, until they were alchemize for a Higher Purpose…
I’m not advocating anything here… but if you are stuck in a atheistic paradigm, this may be your key out…
Hope this helps
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In the topic where I talked about feeling like I was reverting back to an animal, you mentioned atavism. Is there any connection between atavism and lycanthropy? I ask because I noticed that my response to pain is not crying or feeling sad but resort to an adrenaline intense rage to the point I want to get lost in it so I don’t feel the pain anymore. The moment I said that, my mind went to a time learning about the Berserker warriors of Norse culture. Not to mention that the Berserker warriors were believed to had a part to play in the legends of lycanthropy. Is there any connection between atavism and lycanthropy?