i honestly get you, i have been there quite recently, literally spent most of my savings(how much ever a student can save up, mostly all gone) some people were like i will do black magic, this and that. not once, not twice but more than couple of times i gave my money away after so much research, i came across this forum. read a post created by @Lady_Eva regarding love spells which actually work.(keep in mind that i had lost all my faith in magic because of all the scammers. started reading (a whole lot of it) then created an account here, and desperately went ahead an created a post to ask for help to cast a spell for me. i still remember the only couple responses i got, one being from lady eva, suggesting a spirit( i had no idea that name she wrote was a spirit name, and i went looking for spell caster with that name, “yeah i was that stupid and desperate”)
so moving to main point, i started studying and after a while i started asking questions which i knew i will probably get help. so after a month of little studying, i have learned couple of things, even finished almost finished the book “lesser key of solomon” in this period i made couple of friends who have been practice but not to ask them to cast spells for me but learn from them ( though i found one amazing guy who is helping me a lot with my situation but at the same time he is teaching me things and making me understand things) and guess what today i had that moment where i got up drew a seal and performed a ritual. i don’t know if it went well or not but it definitely felt great, and i feel it was accepted.
okay sorry for such a long comment but my point is, just give it some time, read, learn and try(be respectful, apologize to the entity you evoking for any unintended mistake you did, better be safe then sorry) they listen to us even we don’t evoke them(by performing rituals and all), they just do listen once you have read their name and have thought "okay I am going to ask for help from this certain spirit, believe in it that it is heard and have faith, things will come.
so guys and girl, please do point out if i am wrong anywhere. cheers!