TO ALL I WON’T BE POSTING AGAIN IN THIS THREAD UNTIL I"M OUT OF THIS SITUATION.
I will update when I’m victorious an share my path out so others may benefit.
Thank all of you for your support, empathy and compassion, and even hostility as all have benefited me.
Wishing you good luck mate, I understand how toxic family members can be sometimes. 
It’s been a while and in my last post I said…
"TO ALL I WON’T BE POSTING AGAIN IN THIS THREAD UNTIL I"M OUT OF THIS SITUATION.
I will update when I’m victorious an share my path out so others may benefit.
Thank all of you for your support, empathy and compassion, and even hostility as all have benefited me."
I want to report I am now out of that living hell situation. I’m in my own place which is in a very nice highrise and I’m no longer struggling. My life is not perfect. I still have no social life or sex life, because I have been working on setting up my new place and still dealing with some depression and negativity at times. But nothing like it was before. I have so much to be grateful for now.
I still have issues with my mother but she now knows she will end up in jail if she messes with me. Also when I had asked Calimosi to bring justice she got very ill and I thought she was going to die. I asked for a second chance for her and she was recovering in 3 days. That showed me it was real.
I have to give thanks to all of the beings that helped me get out of that situation Many Angels, Daemons, Gods & Godesses and humans as well that were brought into my life.
Some of them…
Lord Shiva/Enki/Lucifer
Lord Ganesha
Goddess Laxshimi
My very Dear Bune/Wadjet who has been like a Guardian to me and pulled me out of depression and anxiety more times than I can count and helped me so much. I have so much love for her.
Archangel Micheal
Archangel Raphiel
Angels Yohach, Kalach, Oziel, Natzariel
Calimosi
Cimeries
Liriol
Oriens
I worked with all of them intuitively and with love, respect and gratitude and recognized them all as part of Source/GOD as well as that I am as well. I came in my own power but asking for help.
I work with them within my own code of ethics and morality, using my Free Will. I have embraced the Light and the Dark for it is all part of GOD (not the god of the old testament.)
I still have ups and downs but things are much better than when I came here. And I have stepped back into my own power and I’m doing Qigong, Meditating, Visualizing. But I still ask for help and protection daily.
I now need to get past this block that is keeping me isolated and celibate. I’m considering going into the adult industry to some degree as the doors have been manifesting. In a way that would be pleasing to me.
I have had many opportunities but passed them up out of fear of judgment and fear it would ruin mainstream opportunities as well as fear of catching an STD. As you can see I have some issues of fear due to my upbringing I have to work on.
But every time I look at porn. I feel like I would be very happy doing that (not just the sex but actually doing porn as I’m a very sexual person and I love sex more than just about anything except my Spirituality) but it’s not the only thing I want to do with my life. But I definite want rich abundant sex life. But I’m not really wanting a normal monogamous relationship right now. Part if it is I’m tired of working, I just want to do what I enjoy and that I’m good at. And the Irony is I’m great in bed or so I have been told many times, I was told by 3 women I should be Gigolo, two wanted to pimp me out…lol Yet their is some block that keeps manifesting celibacy in my life. The Irony the thing I’m best at and love the most in life I do the least and I want to change that.
I’m also working on other projects. Maybe there is something on that path for me that I need to grow. Just like the good that came out of the hell I went through was that it forced me to work with Daemons & Lucifer and other Gods & Godesses and in that process shed layers and layers of fear, and where there was fear or hate it has been replaced with love and faith.
The downside is I am still very socially isolated, feel very alone all of the time, Since I moved it’s like I’m on house arrest (Mostly due to a massive amount of work to set up the place) but I love my place and love being here and I have a great view so I stay focused on that. But going without sex for over a year and a half really fucks with me. I also have high standards.
I have noticed when I break contact with my mother all of the negative things lesson. Hopefully soon I will not have to deal with her at all. But there is still businesses I have to talk to her about and some of my property she still has. But anyway things are night and day from where they were when I first posted. And she is keeping her distance and does not know where I live (and could not get past security) or have my land line.
Many think I was weak for not attacking her or I’m sure that because I’m still speaking to her. But I do believe external reality is our creation so I’m doing my best to resolve all issues by changing my beliefs and energy. But that is not always an easy path but I think it’s the one that offers the most growth. She is mentally ill, that’s a fact. But what part of me is creating that if “everything is me pushed out” (Neville Goddard).
But I have also learned that sometimes there is so much momentum to a situation it’s very hard to deal with it from a spiritual level or by manifestation alone. Which is why calling on External forces are of great benefit, as is taking physical action to your best ability. But the most important thing is staying centered and knowing your own power.
Any way that’s just my experience and I can’t say what’s right or wrong for anyone else. I just wanted to post an update to the change I have had in my life.
Om Namah Shivaya
Hail Lucifer Bringer of the Light!
Well, it changes only according to genuine changes in the inner. Not strong wishing/hoping, effort etc. Genuine shifts in consciousness. It always and is always shifting to consciousness but the stability will dependent on the stability of the shift.