Ok guys I will start this off by saying I have very limited knowledge of occult practices and things of this nature. I am going to try and recant this story exactly as I remember it any help at all is appreciated.
When I was 15 years old I had a friend named Gabriel we were very good friends the kind that could be seen hanging out everyday and really cared about each other. We would talk and have the usual discussions teenagers do drugs, girls, parents ect. As him and I grew our friendship he began to tell me of a spirit he worked with when he was a young child. He started working with this spirit because his mother had brain cancer and was given six months to live .
15 years later she is still alive to the Marvel of her doctors and specialists. My friend told me that he called out to satan as a young child and in his words “something much more powerful” called back. He had told me how he had since been working with this spirit but would never give me a name . As our friendship continued we would occasionally indulge in LSD together, this is where the things really started to happen. At the time I was of Christian faith , I am not anymore I have since found out a lot of things about myself and moved into more of a respecting nature and just enjoying good energies type of beliefs. I felt that last detail was important.
When we would take LSD together I would feel this presence and it would be extremely dark and menacing towards me. My friend would then explain the prescence was the spirit he worked with and how it did not like me because I worshipped god. He never explicitly said the entity wanted to hurt me or cause harm but that he found me indefinitely annoying. We continued these lsd journeys together with him revealing more and more information to me until he finally said the spirits name was Belial. (Even now typing that name gives me a chill of the spine) My friend would just keep telling me that this spirit wasn’t evil as it seems and was actually like a friend to him . But as I was in a stubborn Christian mindset at the time I couldn’t let it go.
I started to challenge Belial hold crosses to my friend smudge rooms after he entered them. I challenged Belial through my friend multiple times that I would fight him and beat him. Now I feel so dumb being older and knowing the things I know. I have realized that Belial is not evil because nothing is everything has purpose. In the times of me fighting against him he terrorized my family constantly showing himself to my sister and scaring her . He would leave bruises on my family and attack my stepfather .
Since I stopped my hatred quest towards him about 4 years ago he has stopped messing with me in the physical. But I do have an issue I do truly like psychedelics for me they are a way of learning and advancement of who I am as a person. Now to my issue every time I use psychedelics Belial starts to appear and scares the living shit out of me and this allows my experience to not advance but get stuck. My fear of psychedelics now is huge bordering on the insane that I don’t even want to be around people on them for fear he may try to contact me through them. I was wondering if there is anyway I can bury this hatchet .
I don’t nessecarily want to work with Belial maybe I would if I can get pst this with him I’m not sure . I was always very intrigued by him though fascinated as I was terrified. Is there anyway to apologize for this is there anyway I can make him see how truly sorry I am . I really feel this I’m so sorry and feel so stupid for challenging him when he was just trying to help my friend. I’m out of places to go this is the only site I found with any mentions of Belial and I need help. After my friend and I stopped talking he went through a long period of drug abuse . When we reconnected he told me he remembered nothing of Belial or even knew he existed I assume possibly this is because Belial left him for abusing himself while working with him. But that was my only guess. If anyone can help me any advice at all is appreciated I just want to be able to move past this and once again use psychedelics as the learning tool they are to me . I feel as though there is some lesson Belial wants me to learn maybe of humiltliy and humble nature I’m really not sure but I just feel him shutting down my trips is a direct link to stopping me advancing as a person . Again I do not know much but I assume this could be his goal to hold me back until I acknowledge or truly apologize but I wanted to do more research before going in blind any help is greatly appreciated especially any notes possibly from a follower or someone who works with Belial . Once again thank you to anyone who may answer for your time and consideration .