I know this is embarrassing

I would summon President Camio he has the ability to make you charismatic and personable as well as remove anxiety and awkwardness.

Are you in INDIA?If yes than we can be friends

your welcome

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From what you’ve written here, it appears to me that you’re forcing this social isolation on yourself. Things won’t improve until you find the get up and go to strive for your goal. Very little in life simply falls in our lap, magic is no different.
I recommend mediating on your personal flaws and working with a spirit to build up a new personality. Depression arises when we lack something our mind perceives to be essential for social acceptance and personal security. Often it arises when we stagnate in some manner or feel we lack the skills required to function to our full potential in society. Address that and you’ll see improvement in your mood, confidence and motivation.

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I’m not Indian nor do I live in India, I’m from England.

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Hey i always ask people to pm me for stuff not because I’m a creep, but because i tried to commit suicide(I’m better now) and a close friend of mine succeeded, i find that when given the option to talk about what’s on there mind, they do. It really helps a lot of people and make them feel much better. And if you needed it you could ask me for my number because sometime you just can go onto a forum and really need a ear to listen.

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You can draw the sigil on a piece of paper, and just meditate on it with the intention that Glay’yos will hear you. It might help to listen to ambient meditation music, theta brainsync music with headphones (youtube has many free tracks) or shamanic drumming music. As you feel yourself relaxing, share your feelings with Glas’yos and ask for his help in lifting the anxiety and depression. It doesn’t matter if you don’t see or feel a manifestation, being depressed messes up your biochemistry, which affects your subtle bodies and can stop up your senses so it’s hard to See, but that doesn’t stop the spirits from seeing you and being there.

Another technique that worked for me, was to set up a chair next to me, and in a meditative state again, visualise my depression as it’s own being that moves to sit in that chair so I can see it and talk to it. I drew a picture of it afterwards in my journal, it looked like a roughly man-shaped being made of snot, with teeth. What was shocking to me, after I could look at it, was to realise how much it hated me… It actually snarled at me. I then visualised it dissolving and all it’s energy being sent deep into the earth to be recycled and felt like light was able to shine on me again. With what I know now, I may have been clearing a parasite without knowing that’s what it was.

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I’m not forcing myself in social isolation

So why is it you only really go out when other people invite you and apparently " can’t be bothered " to visit your friend? Is it really a surprise you’re life has become monotonous?
You need to take the mundane steps for the magic to work.

I bet you never or you felt what depression is like so I don’t think you understand it very well or I expect you too. And thanks for concern anyway. Thank you for everyone’s (@Mulberry, @anon39410973, @xiao, @AdamThoth, @anon20147451, @chthonicmagus, @HisWife and @DarkestKnight) else’s suggestions I appreciate it very much. :heart: Thanks for letting me talk to you guys, I usually feel very anxious and feel as though I don’t want to burden anyone so I don’t tend to speak to people online, hell I hardly talk about my Mental Health issues with my family members.

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@Si-Chan, he’s one of the lucky ones, he doesn’t understand and you can’t explain it to him; don’t waste your time. He probably thinks you should ‘just pull yourself together’ as well :confused: Take no notice.

@Biffa_Bacon - I know you think you’re being helpful, but that’s not how it works. If you’re interested, you need to get your own education first because you’re just being rude and judgemental and making it worse. What you are talking about is regular depression, not what’s happening to Si-Chan. It’s not up to depressed people to have to explain and defend their illness to you. Here - this guy does it very well:

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Back to the price of fish, I had some time open up this afternoon and I’m going to spend it doing workings.

If you like, I’ll do you a scan, do some qi balancing on your astral being, sweep for parasites and contact Glay’yos and Raphael and see if I can’t send them your way.

I just saw some interesting information on V.K. Jehannum’s channel about sending healing energy to people who’s issues are caused by parasites - that the parasites can use the energy to feed on, making it worse. That sounds quite sensible, although my qiging teachers always said you can trust the qi to know where to go, because it’s sentient. So where I used to say ‘I’ll send good energy’ there’s doubt in my head now so I’ll be more careful with it and be specific and check the lay of the land. If I find a parasite I’ll kill it. (Sorry, not sorry, I used to let them go, Azazel taught me better - save spiders, kill mosquitoes.)

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I’m fine with it. :+1:t5:

I was actually severely depressed for 6 years, in my youth. I only got better once I acknowledged I’d made my own bed and I had two options; I could lay in it or I could realise that to fix the problem, I was going to have to acknowledge my own flaws ( rather than using them as an excuse).
Just my two cents, take it or leave it. Just don’t come crying to me when you struggle to improve your situation.

She actually reminds me of the way I used to be, faced a lot of the same issues. The real problem is that society today encourages people to look to blame rather than to address.

I can give you a “terrenal” advice. Start a new sport, or a new fitness activity that involves socialising with others, like funcional training or crossfit. It will not only be good for your health, but It will also improve your mood and you’ll get to make new friends.
If sports are not your thing, you can find a new hobby that involves socialising.

Funny because I wouldn’t be crying to you. What makes you think that? If you did understand then you could’ve been more polite. I’m not type to cry all day stay in my house bedridden. I actually make the decision to walk out of my house everyday and make the right decisions. I enjoy my work despite being unpaid at least it gets me out of the house because I feel even more depressed if I’m at home sulking all day like a whiny little bitch. Yes I have very depressive days when I feel I want to end my life, feeling suicidal as shit. But I don’t because I still have hope left inside me and I don’t know I probably I wouldn’t be here making this damn thread in the first place. Hey I use to be way worse than I was a year ago, I never spoke or made eye contact with people. I talk to people sometimes I just don’t interact with people but I think that’s okay. Because at least I make effort including other people who are suffering from mental illness. Like you said you made a decision to get your arse out and not making excuses because depression is being a little bitch. I actually applaud you for doing that :clap:t5: because you wouldn’t be enjoying life right now and no I’m not being sarcastic. Sorry if we both gone on the wrong foot of each other. Peace?

Of course, it’s only a forum discussion :slight_smile:

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I have been depressed for over a decade now and also wanted to commit suicide three times the latest being last year which was the worst so far. I took professional’s help and spent a lot of money on medicines and therapy but it wasn’t helping me. There are some hard aspects in my natal chart which force me into isolation and loneliness with no friends, love or sex or even relationships. This is my life. Depression is a call for spiritual ascension and be of help to others.

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I think its safe to say most of us have been there or at least felt what you’ve described.
I have moved interstate a few times now to places I know no one. It takes me a little while before I poke my head out of my house and when I do I can honestly tell you Im awkward and say the stupidest crap. Over the yrs Ive learnt that at the end of the day we all say and do embarrassing stuff.
Self love and acceptance is really important, and accepting not fitting in with our own age group is one of them. I also dont fit in with those around my age so yeah, I get that.

On a practical level getting good quality sleep helps alot with depressive moods especially if they come during the evening.
Buy some nice pillar candles and a fictional book and turn the evenings into a self care routine. Turn off all tech devices 30mins before bed and light your candles and read a paperback book. Also take melatonin at this time too. It helps your body get deep, restful sleep.
If theres an interest you have but have never tried I suggest posting on a social site that your interested in joining a group or finding a mentor in that field. Do this when your feeling excited about it and forget about it, someone will either contact you (and you have to go try it out!) Or you will hear nothing.

Creating an alter ego element of yourself; like when you wear red nail polish you become more extroverted and flirty.
But if your after more magical techniques then maybe drawing up sigils or glamouring your mirrors. Xx

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I am from india. Would you like to tell me where you are from?