Recently went to a neurologist and she suspects I have multiple sclerosis. I’m gonna do two MRI scans today and some medical tests to see if I have that or not.
I hope I don’t have that because there’s currently no cure for multiple sclerosis, but it’s possible to treat the symptoms with medicines and other treatments
I practice magick since 3 years ago. I could use occult knowledge to heal myself but… The problem is that my parents don’t allow evoking Great President Buer or Great President Marbas or any other demon. Healing incantations are not allowed. Yeah. They are Orthodox Christians. All magick is forbidden here including calling Archangel Raphael because they don’t know about His existence and they don’t know it’s a legit archangel. I can’t even chant RA - PHA - EL or listen to healing frequencies or watch healing subliminals. The only thing they allow me to do is visualization.
I did read a Prayer for Raphael and yesterday I went to a Monastery in Bucharest and I think there were some Relics of Saint Nectarios of Aegina (a healer). I did pray and light a candle there, near His icon, with the intent to get healthy. I also drink holy water every morning from now on because that’s the tradition and beliefs here in Romania.
I need advice on what should I do now. I’m not really close to God. My mother believes that this disease is just a punishment / “life lesson” because I practice magick. I don’t know if I want to listen to my parents or not.
- Should I secretly evoke a Demon? Will the Saint get mad because I do that instead of putting 100% of my trust in God? I’m scared of being punished.
- Should I secretly use demonic incantations for healing such as
Talak tala menzu ikba tala mesoreth meenkataor I should just trust God instead of any occult stuff?
- what to do if God will not save me because the really bad things I’ve done? I haven’t confessed my sins since a long time ago.
Thank you guys in advance for your time.