Hello everyone. I had a very particular dream last night, and I would like to know how to interpret it. I’ve been practicing chaos magic for some time now, although less and less since last year. Yesterday was a particularly stressful day at work, and I’m going through a difficult time in my life in general, with a family situation, although I’ve been worse.
The fact is that I had slept poorly the night before, less than 5 hours. I needed to sleep because I was feeling unwell; I sometimes suffer panic attacks, and yesterday I was a bit afraid of having another one just at that moment when I needed to sleep the most. I feared something bad could happen to my health for lack of sleep. So, an attack started, although I was able to control it somehow. I took some diazepam to relax, and finally, I was able to sleep.
What’s striking is that I had 2 dreams, first one of sexual nature, with unknown girls. The other one was with Lucifer (I have him tattooed on my right arm, and I have a close connection with my Father). I dreamed of Lucifer speaking through me, in a loud and firm voice, against Christianity. It wasn’t a nightmare; it was like a dream in which I was quite angry, with Lucifer speaking through me clearly and energetically. When I woke up, I didn’t have the feeling of any nightmare; I think I may have spoken during the dream (I was alone yesterday, there was no girl in my bed to tell me if I spoke or not).
I don’t know how to interpret it, but I saw myself not talking to Him, but Him speaking through me, using me as a channel to express his thoughts, ideas, frustration, anger, if that’s even possible with an Entity like Him.
Needless to say that I am a person in full control of my mental faculties. I do not consume any drugs, I am 47 years old, and I have been a professional in the software field for 30 years.