I totally agree; judgmental or not! I will admit to being annoyed of deep engrams for flinching and gunshynessness where trying to work around my life obsticles are concerned.
you know- I read psychocybernetics- and a couple others he wrote, and for the life of me- it is like a blank. But then they were read before my last 'Spiritual Death and return" event.
But i will work what you described; and at least I have this, I am stubborn and tend to hammer at something until it gives in or I get what I want. Like my fav saying says, figures my latin notes aren’t handy- “I will find a way,or make one”. Hopefully some big people on the other saide will say “if you want him to stop bugging you, give him what he wants !”.
Thanks- feeling better.
[quote=“Lady Eva, post:7, topic:4971”]I don’t agree you need perfect circs, or to be undisturbed, but I think your mind’s fixed on that for some reason - I don’t mean that in a judgemental way!
Try this - before you go to sleep at night, imagine - as a daydream. nothing more - the exact thing you’d like to happen, for example imagine leaving your body and going wherever, or imagine being in your Temple and having a complete manifestation, and then an interesting talk.
Really feel the emotions of success, excitement, whatever you know you’d feel in reality.
Then imagine those things ending safely and to your satisfaction, again walk through every emotion, and bring the daydream full circle as you prep for bed, and get back in just as you are in “reality.”
This is taken from the book Psycho-Cybernetics that I wrote about before, here, which maintains (and I believe this, it’s logical and also fits my experiences) that the subconscious cannot tell the difference between something that’s vividly imagined, and infused with strong emotion, and something that “really happened.”
If you have subconscious blocks, whatever created them, repeatedly visualising success infused with emotion will allow your mind (which is only trying to protect you) to let go of them.
Never having perfect peace and quiet on the other hand is evidently its own block and your mind’s fixed itself on that to feel safe, it’s sending you these feelings of aggravation and saying “Well let’s not do this thing you have a block about now, let’s place conditions on it so you feel like you can do it, but only in some unspecified future.”
I could bet you that if for example you could arrange respite care for your wife, and if all those glorious pooches were elsewhere, your mind would pick something else to block you with.
“Where there’s a will, there’s a way” is VERY true, but that will has to be backed up by all the brain and especially the bit that monitors your world 24/7 to keep you safe, not just the conscious mind.
So that’s my theory on what might help, anyway, and at the very least you can exercise your daydreaming skills, which is never a bad idea!
Oh and one more tip - just visualise you and the spirit, or your adventures in the astral, or whatever - don’t think about the outcomes of the rituals at all. I realise this is the opposite of the “law of attraction” but thinking about that stuff at this stage might be counter-productive.[/quote]