I don’t post much here but I read a lot.
How open are you to discussing your beliefs with people you know in real life? I really don’t have anyone I can talk to, which is why I read a lot of posts on here and occasionally reply or start a thread. The majority of my friends/family are heavily Christian. If I told them I was a Satanist who is in process of setting up an altar to Satan/Lucifer/Baphomet, I’m fairly certain they would have me put in a hospital on a 72 hour hold. I hate that my beliefs are ‘too scary’ for most. I have a young child (9), and I’m very careful about staying quiet about my beliefs if there is any possible way it could affect her friendships or school life (I was the picked-on kid when I was her age through high school - I don’t want to do anything that could cause that to happen to her).
I guess I’m just kind of lonely in that one of the biggest, most important aspects of my life is something I can’t - or don’t dare - talk about with anyone I know. I’m very thankful for this site and the forum, as I can ask questions or talk about things and no one bats an eye.