The truth of being god, is that path is but an illusion, there isn’t black or white, there simply IS magick. Very Buddhist I know, don’t loose me, we’re about to get real deep here.
This is an ongoing quest, the nature of which is about the Alchemy of the Soul. The more you channel this omnipotence through your soul, the more you will transfigure it in the likeness and NATURE of which you call, and you will see reflections of your soul in the universe at large.
If you are truly committed to your godhood, I would suggest you evoke none other than Azazel, and request that he remove your illusions to such.
But if you are really attached to a dysfunctional relationship, it will break apart. If you keep using magick to keep it together, it will get worse, EVENTUALLY I HAVE FOUND, every time you use magick, your godly power will be turned against you…Your divine power is being called to manifest it’s nature, and by the power of omnipotence it will be fulfilled regardless of what you ask for.
Some people are like children who just demonstrate how childish they are by constantly manipulating their lives and the people around them.
When what really needs to change is inside.
So you can do something really worth while with this stuff.
I have worked with a lot of powerful demons.
I have spent years in the presence of dark gods of illumination, this was one of the first quests I ever had in magick at all.
And what nobody is going to tell you is, the best of them will simply remove your obstacles to the things you want, and you should never panic and try to hold on.
Life appears really chaotic
But if you really have faith in these things, and don’t get crazy and interfere and get in the way of spirits.
REMEMBER, YOU CALLED ON THEM FOR SOMETHING, IT WILL MANIFEST BY THE NATURE OF YOUR DIVINE POWER! TO GET IN THE WAY OF YOUR RITUAL, IS TO GET IN THE WAY OF YOUR OWN POWER AND DIVINITY.
Is it ever safe to get in the way of the power and will of a god? Especially if you are that god?
Spirit will give you something better to live in, and if not do not dispair.
As a wiseman once said.
“WHEN GOD GIVES YOU LEMONS, YOU FIND A NEW GOD!!!”
Or if you like to be a child like many people, often the spirit will be insulted at your lack of ability to understand or learn from it, and will give you what you want, in a way that you with either loose whatever you got immediately and suffer a worse fate, or, you will spend a lot of time obsessed with spirit gaining nothing from it. The best spiritual teachers, and the best givers of power, are severe in their lessons.
And if you hold on to your illusions, and the things that hold you back, you will be driven insane, and that’s why some people die and go nuts in this mostly.
They were unstable to begin with, and well, no surprise you know, you call on powerful spirits, you should expect powerful lessons, powerful changes in your life, and even changes in the nature of one’s soul.
nobody ever gave me this warning, so that’s the only reason I’m giving it to you.
As perhaps the line that was prophesied to Bran earlier is correct in it’s entirety if we interpret it as ancient sorcerers would have.
The prophecy, as I believe it to be from my divining, was as follows.
“You, I have always known you. Always, that is since that moment when you first laid eyes upon me”
This is very very critical language that codes in a lot of mysteries and greater details about ANY WORKING WITH SPIRIT IN OUR ART.
“Always, that is since that moment when you first laid eyes upon me”
“Since that moment when you first laid eyes upon me”
“you first laid eyes upon me.”
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This is the true core of the message, in this case, conveying the most deep of meanings to the sorcerer, and illustrating the lesson through the art he uses.
As soon as one lays eyes on a sigil, one is peering into a great soul, this is not the universe, it is simply another being of pure consciousness. This art entangles the souls on a quantum level, whether this happen by us laying eyes on the sigil or not.
The truth is this happens any time we cross paths, even physically, but we are bound on a more intimate level than you can possibly imagine, imagine the level of “intimacy” to be more than 1,000,000 times as powerful as having sex with someone.
The true illusion, is that any of us are seperate.
Through these sigils we discover various aspects of soul and self that are connected to these dark mysteries.
“Always, that is since that moment”
The past, present, and future are all illusions of consciousness, it is truly always that this has been, but when do we become aware of it? At what moment precisely? If we simply ask this question, the mystery is revealed, when the saying is laid bare.
“Always, that is since that moment when you first laid eyes upon me”
You discover many lives that you have lived, in your connection to me, the moment since you first laid eyes upon me.
This although, is Azazel’s most cryptic hidden meaning, which he bestows, in the dual truth he presents without really disclosing it openly.
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You have always been with me, because we were never separate, you simply looked into my soul, and the soul of the universe, and perceived the lessons and life you learned with me.
NOTHING IS OBJECTIVELY REAL, NOTHING THAT I SHOW YOU AT ALL.
THIS IS AN ILLUSION OF PERCEPTION YOU HAVE BESTOWED UPON YOURSELF.
BECAUSE YOU ARE GOD, AND YOU CAN CLAIM YOUR DIVINITY ANY WAY YOU CHOOSE.
This is at least, how I divined this prophecy, but I don’t claim to be an expert, just someone who has been delivered such meanings. It is up to everyone to judge for themselves whether or not any of this is true at all. I just present the truth as I divine it in the words and meanings of what was given. I do not know, because this was not delivered to me. Such revelations are often personal, and give much DEEPER meanings than what is often transmitted through word alone, but they pierce deep into the heart of the question at hand. Not a moment too late, and not a moment too soon.
But the true core of the message, and the ultimate answer to your question is.
We claim these lives and power ourselves, with each godly act, as a powerful reminder of who we are, and who will we always be.
YOU HAVE ALWAYS BEEN GOD,
-Frater Apotheosis