Holy Death is a real energy…
Everytime I meditate at the shrine, it becomes darker in my room. The statue has an aura at this point. I feel a presence to my right side behind me.
But, obviously, I come out of the room and I feel tired and morose. This I imagine is normal and part of initiation into death mysteries.
How do you deal with this or is this something else? Parasitic?
Rest. It’s normal to get magickal fatigue after a big working. If its’ more thn that and you have unbalanced your energy away from what’s healthy for humans, the get outside in nature and ground, let the excess to into the Earth and take time to heal and adapt.
Well, death is not good for living beings, it sort of kills them… Try not to take so much death into your energy system, and use more astral tools to handle it rather than directly. You want to learn from the dead and death, rather than be dead.
If by Holy Death, you mean Santa Muerte…I have been working with her since 2017 and never have I felt drained or depressed afterwards. That is not her energy. Santa Muerte brings a radiance and joy into your life, not depression.
I have not been working with Santa Muerte. The impersonal spirit of Death. I have stopped praying daily since it got dark and menacing.
ah okay! i see