Maybe give yourself a break, you’re giving yourself a lot to take on all at once. Invoking is a bit like running before you can walk, and in your state, as “like attracts like” that might not be the best approach for you. You don’t want negative entities that enjoy this energy and will help you to feel more of it getting in your way.
Rather, why not try a petition, which is powerful but low risk and doesn’t need open senses, or sigil magick?
A good entity is Lucifer for this kind of thing. He’s beginner friendly and will be reasonably gentle in building you up. If you work with angels, Opfaal the Angel of Deliverance comes to mind. Or Raphael for healing your emotional wounds.