Hi @Kora, you have to introduce yourself to the forum first, it’s a very important rule. Please go here: BALG RULES - Please read them! and make a proper intro.
To answer your question: I think you should trust what you feel, since it seems like He has been making Himself known to you. I would suggest doing more research about Him and trying to communicate with Him as best as you can. Make some time every day to calm your mind, meditate on His sigil and focus on Him. He always appreciates it if people do their best, you don’t have to master everything, just try to establish communication with Him. Also, make sure to learn how to banish and protect yourself.