Hello,
I am a 45 year old male from Texas. Was raised Catholic, but could not go through the “Confirmation” process and left the church at age 15. I was always drawn to the occult, horror, etc. and eventually read LaVey’s Satanic Bible. I was struck to find that I agreed with almost everything in the book. However I put those thoughts away and drifted through many philosophies over the years.
After the loss of my mother last year, I began to think again about spiritual matters and I remembered my connection with the Satanic Bible. I purchased several books on Satanism and LHP philosophies.
I read the Belial book from the BALG series and felt a strong connection/attraction to him immediately. I used several techniques in the book to connect with him. For the first time in a while, I felt strong and confident, which was followed by success at work.
I began to meditate using enns and sigils for Astaroth and Belial. This was followed by a strong interest in Lucifer. Again, I turned to the BALG books and “Lucifer’s Rites” from the Temple of Ascending Flame.
I tried connecting with Lucifer using guidance by the BALG and Ascending Flame books. Over the last month, I have felt more connected to his current. Last week, I meditated and felt/heard wings flapping near me. A day later, I saw a mental image of a three-headed dragon. I feel like I am connecting, but would definitely appreciate any guidance.
I am thankful I found this forum. I have to keep my beliefs a secret so I am glad to be able to share virtually. I am open to all discussions, especially about connecting with Lucifer, Belial, Astaroth and other entities. I am very much a newbie but I hope to learn as much as I can.
Thanks and blessings to all!