Yes, yes, I am thinking on Marbas as well as Haagenti…
Like I mentioned, first came my dissatisfaction, anger and frustration and then came the illness. I’ve no doubt in my mind that my emotions and weak mindedness manifested in my illness. Perhaps I was so emotionally and mentally vulnerable that maybe some negative entities took advantage of my situation.
So thanks to this awesome post I am thinking to start with Haagenti, so he can help me strengthen my mind and emotions, and ask Marbas to help my make physical changes on my body to regain physical strength. Both mental/emotional and physical strength should go together (I believe). It will be then and only then, that slowly but surely I may start to get my physical health back.
Just like on that “Playboy” post, the easiest most intuitive choice would be to call on someone like Sitri or Sallos. But if you have the social skills of a flower pot, well, you may be likely to manifest squat. So start with what is required to get to your goal. Start with the basics, be diligent, and don’t despair (easier said than done-I just bit my tongue).
Just last week I called on Great King VINE. I did it with the purpose of having him help me improve my magick. I believe that this is where we should all start (right?). That is why I’m here. At the very least I am having a tremendous change in energy and mentality in the form of enthusiasm and physical energy, just this last three days. Coincidence? Not likely, for this last 3 years I’ve been nothing but a ‘dead body’ alive. Just taking enough painkillers to sedate me and have me bedridden with the purpose of staying away of reality and the world. So like I mentioned, I realize again that Magick is real, and what I didn’t realize was how these spirits can work so fast and powerful.
I will keep in mind your suggestion of Belial too. Thanks bro.