My dad was murdered when i was 6, for years afterwards i’d constantly be feeling “dizzy” and having horrible stomachaches anytime i’d go outside or socialise. I went to 3948298429842 doctors and they all said the same thing - she’s okay, it’s all psychological. For years on end i was an incredibly depressed and hopeless kid, i was completely isolated and afraid of everything. Not survival-wise (i.e. someone will do something bad to me), it just manifested in a lot of self-hatred instead. I almost starved myself to death and nearly died from anorexia. Stuff like that.
Lately the last few years i’ve made tremendous improvement with all this, but i am constantly relapsing (anxiety-wise). If i experience any kind of stress, my body almost shuts down like i literally cannot comprehend what is happening around me, cannot get anything done, i barely remember what people are saying to me. I am also a single mom and the second my kid starts crying i physically get into panic mode.
But it’s not necessarily even mindset-based/actual overthinking, it’s just fully somatic. My body sort of shuts down. I do daily meditation, cleansing and other stuff that has helped me significantly to feel better and raise my vibration. To feel less anxious overall. But no matter what i do, few hours later i am back to the spiraling. I am sick of it because many times i actually feel happy and positive and it happens anyway, like an automated response. And it’s ruining my life and getting in the way of my productivity, daily life, and all my relationships with those around me including my own kid…
A combination of talk therapy with someone who understands Complex PTSD and entities that specially in mental-emotional healing shoukd help.
Paimon is really good at this, also Dra’talon, Belial, Azazel, Raphael, Ebuhuel, Mary The Magdalene.
Also since you already meditate you can add to that deep healing with applying the “Water Method of Taoist Meditation” which lets you find and clear the knots of energy directly without having to reexperience the trauma.
If you havent tried psychotherapy yet I will strongly recommend it.
I myself have recently started physiotherapy and that seems to “unblock” physically stored emotions for me.
So physio is good for unblocking/unlocking stored emotions/experiences/memories and then psychotherapy helps with dealing with what came up and how to integrate it into your life/psyche.
Yes, I have methods for this. If it is not due to financial condition then it should be easy.
While other black magicians focused on so-called power, I focused on the most essential things.
Traumas are nothing!
So, what are those? It’s not financial conditions as i have a good support network, but i think my anxiety is causing too many blockages for me including financial
I will not comment on whether the information in this book is correct or not. But the power behind this book is abnormal.
No book, no mantra has such a powerful cleansing power.
There is no placebo here. If one session is enough to go from the state of “I want to die” to “I can handle it, life is not that bad”, then you know that this is not a placebo.
Of course, it may take you a little longer, but with every hour spent reading this book, you will feel better.
This is a magical tool, if you think you know something because you read this book once or twice, it means that you know nothing, this is a powerful form of purification. Even if you do not come to any new understanding, you are still purifying yourself.
Belial confirmed to me a few years ago that the founder of this system is a powerful man and that is exactly how it is.
There is also the issue of nutrition, lack of addictions and so on, but I think you already know that. You simply should not torture yourself.
I hope you understand.
Because, I have taught you a method to defeat the demon of depression.
I hope that as a reward for my efforts, you will write on the forum whether you feel better.
Maybe even open a new topic.
I could have simply ignored you and you would have been tormented for many next years.
That’s not my problem after all. That’s what I should have done, according to society’s standards.