I can’t speak about this with anyone in physical life and while spirits have been helping me, I need a humans (or mages) opinion.
During December while I was hostipalized, I had a dick betray me in the worst way possible. I had two other friends say nothing while this all went on behind my back. It’s tearing me apart now.
Honestly I want, let’s call him Square, dead. He’s been a piece of shit to me since high school and I think it’s long overdue. I did cast a spell on him and never felt such rage before. I followed EAs technique with my own adjustments. I did want him to suffer for the rest of his life and my guides helped me but there’s still so much of rage it’s like I want to bash his brains in.
My other friends and the individual who was hurt well I don’t want them to get harmed. They tried to stay Nuetral.
Honestly I feel empty and dead inside after this. I can’t describe it but it feels terrible. If it wasn’t for Freya and the other guides then idk what would happen. The worst part is that the person who offended. I don’t know what to do and it’s just terrible. I don’t wanna die though and excercise makes me feel better so yeah not all bad. But the feeling of disappointment is terrible. I have been invoking which stabilizes my mind. I’m just so pissed and disappointed at everything.
Please can anybody lend me some rituals or medidations or general advice to heal from this because it hurts worse than any emotional thing I’ve suffered before. I need it and thank you all in advance. I really needed the help this time…