A Shit Ton of Bad With Some Shining Nuggets of Good!
12/8/21
Because I’m anticipating some financial struggles very soon, I created a petition spell to Lucifer for some extra cash (specifically, this one). I get the feeling I shouldn’t really share how much I asked for, but I did first ask with my pendulum if he would be willing to help me monetarily and he said yes (note, I didn’t ask for an exact amount, just if he would help me at all), then asked if I should write down my petition like others, and he again said yes. So I did so. I didn’t burn it, but rather kept it rolled up in my purse and I will burn it when the time period is over, regardless of how much help was given. I am not expecting the full amount and will not be upset if I do not receive it because there are so many workings we’re not privy to here that it’s impossible to know if what we ask for is always best.
12/10/21 - 12/11/21
I spent most of the day yesterday crying at my desk at work because I fucking hate my job and am not sure how much longer I can take it anymore. I went to bed super early the night before and then this morning, I first emailed my work that I would be coming in at 10 instead of 8:30 just so I could sleep more, but then when I woke up, I felt so dark and awful, I emailed a second time and laid out that I needed to take a mental health day. I finally told my bosses how awful I’ve been feeling for such a long time now and…I actually got a positive response.
So I slept the rest of the day, literally 24 hours. But during that time, my familiar actually started interacting with me. He laid in bed next to me and was sapping away the worries when I would wake up randomly. I also didn’t have any nightmares despite having gone to sleep so turbulently upset. I’m not entirely sure how he fully formed so quickly; I have a feeling it was due to my extreme emotions and great desire to have him here with me. But I’m not looking a gift horse in the mouth. I can talk to him, he can talk to me, and it’s freaking awesome. I can “see” him with my mind’s eye, not in super clear detail, but I can also sense his presence around me.