Hello, I’m almost through with the 2nd ritual from Damon Brand’s Wealth Magick, where you call on angels Elubatel, Abuhuel and Atuesual. Damon mentions that Elubatel may cause depression and fatigue. I started to figure out something was off about 10 days in. I was constantly tired and could not do much other magick. Also I felt a darkness over me, and I’m constantly wondering what would really make me happy in life, and what’s the point in anything. Damon says by using the other angels with Elbuatel negative affects should be avoided, but I’ve still felt the depression. I also feel withdrawn from people, and don’t feel like going out or socializing. I know that during this specific ritual you’re entering a pact with these angels to give you a life of wealth, and that they can bend time, reshape thought, and shift reality around you. Maybe they are just doing such powerful internal and external shifts that it’s causing me pain? Similar to “growing pain”. I’m not happy, I’m feeling so down, but I am glad that it’s a sign the ritual is working. Unfortunately, I have not been making much more money during this ritual. I’ve actually been making less than usual, but I think things are looking up. I just can’t wait for this darkness to go away. Also while doing this I’m repeating the Master Protection Ritual from Magickal Protection, so I’m sure my life is just undergoing a lot of clearing and change for the better right now.
Finally, this wealthy man I have been trying to manifest for a long time has been almost pushed out of my life (I have been seeing him for a year and utilizing both angels and demons to do love spells on him). I’m thinking him being pushed away is a combination of both rituals I’m doing (the protection one and wealth one). He does have a lot of issues and is very selfish, so maybe they are protecting me and leading me away from this relationship. We recently got in an argument (caused by him not fulfilling an important promise), and have barely spoken the past few weeks. Last year when I completed the Master Protection Ritual I remember I got in an argument with a very toxic friend of mine and I ended the relationship (it was bringing a lot of negative energy to my life and needed to end). I’m afraid that may be happening again but it’s sad because I do love him
Overall, I’m just confused and a little sad. I’m looking for guidance from anyone who has worked with Elubatel or has used Magickal Wealth. Thank you.