Yeah the Infernal path I tried walking around 2 years ago fucked me up pretty hard too. Lucifer and Lilith were chilled af. So was Namah. But never again. Qlipothic deities are not for me and I’m happier with my current path.
But regardless of what path you choose to walk do research for. These paths have worked wonders for many others (it just wasn’t for me) and even something vanilla like Christianity can be dangerous.