I was searching for other people who had similar bad experiences like me I evoked nearly 40 demons I followed koetings metod which I wish I hadnt so here is a fellow mage found her in reddit. My life was falling apart then
I recently spoke with six Goetic spirits, just to interview them, and I had some interesting conversations with them (using Automatic Writing).
I started with Astaroth, who is unique in that she is a deposed goddess, not a disruptive spirit like most of the others. She is a goddess of creation from destruction, along the same lines as Tiamat and Kali-Ma. However, she is bitter and angry at being demonized, and as a result, she sounds and feels more like a demon than a deity. She came across as curt and resentful. I dismissed her too soon, and she punched me. I felt internally as if something had hit my stomach. I contacted her again the next night to apologize, and she was pissed off. Not vengeful, just frustrated with me. I deserved the punch to the gut. She claimed that demons don’t forgive, but I think she accepted my apology. She dumped some of her energetic crap on me, and decided that she was willing to work with me since I was willing to take it. I thanked her for forgiving me, and she said “you’re welcome,” but called me something incomprehensible I understood to mean “apprentice/journeyman/newbie” but derogatory.
Dantalion is a trickster-like entity who thinks the world exists to amuse him. He told me that he is not happy, since demons cannot be happy, but he is satisfied. He wanted to be “friends” with me, but I know not to place any trust in him. I started to mess up my words, such as almost writing “friends hurt each other” instead of “friends trust each other,” and I almost said “Deal?” as a figure of speech before hurriedly stopping myself. It’s important to keep your guard up when speaking to demons. After that, I dismissed him.
Sitri felt similar, but harder to talk to. His entire personality and energy is uncomfortable and distracting. Instead of getting clear words, I mostly got a jumbled mess of stuff from him. I told him he was like Dantalion, and he denied it, saying that Dantalion’s idea of fun was boring. I actually saw an image of him in my mind, a man-shaped figure with leopard paws. He bounced around and occasionally started digging like an animal. I decided it was pointless to get straight answers out of him, and dismissed him.
Stolas I got a clear picture of. He looked like an owl (duh), a huge, sinister barn owl with creepy reddish glowing eyes. He tried to get me to trade with him, energy for instruction in how to see in the dark. That’s a red flag, as you can imagine. I refused several of his offers, and tried throwing him some of the crap Astaroth gave me. He refused it, since it wasn’t mine. I ended up giving him some of my pent-up jealousy and rage, since I wanted to get rid of it anyway. He tore it apart with his beak the way a real owl would. He told me I got very, very lucky. (Of course I did. I’m always lucky.) Be very wary of this one. He’s a predator, and he wants to eat you.
Kimaris’ name popped into my head randomly a year or so ago, and drew me to the Goetia in the first place. Kimaris explained that he is like the evil chancellor, clever and manipulative and working to his own benefit. He comes across as sophisticated and easy to talk to. He offered to obstruct my enemies and stop them in their tracks. When I told them that’s cheating, he said “it’s not cheating if it just happens.” I told him that I will not be directly or indirectly responsible for another’s destruction, no matter what the circumstance. This is a demon that will barter for your soul. I likely will not contact him again, but I’ve got a great idea for a character to write.
Finally, Gremory. I couldn’t see an image of her (or at least, I couldn’t get her design from Bloodstained out of my head), but I got the sense of a huge, dramatically imposing figure. She has an awesome, queenly presence. She likes being a demon, unlike Astaroth. She weaves illusions to make you think everything is okay and then pulls the rug out from under you, but she informed me that she wouldn’t try to trick me since everyone else had already tried that. She also said, “we have a begrudging respect for you, mostly because we find you annoying.”
So. My advice, if you ever want to talk to these entities, is to keep your guard up. Be careful, protect yourself, and be Genre Savvy as hell. I’m not sure if I’ll speak to them again, or if I’ll contact any more, but talking to them has definitely answered a lot of my questions about what exactly demons are, and it has provided me with inspiration. Definitely a useful experience.